Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Bondgurl89
Bondgurl89

I've always fought with depression and was diagnosed with borderline personal disorder. This is hard. My child is just about 1 month old. First time mom too. But I'm stressed. I feel like I was drowning and just cant seem to bring myself to the surface for air. Dont get me wrong. My girl is getting so big! I take care of her and will never let anything happen to her. It's just hard. Shes been crying more and more. I'm breastfeeding and shes fighting with me to latch now (never had this problem) and I feel like I'm doing this alone (married). I'm stressed, tired, and just want to have a break down and cry all the time. (I am a stay at home mom. My choice). She goes 0 to 1000 so fast. Every one keeps telling me I'm doing such a great job but I feel like I'm defeated. She fights her sleep, she fights to eat, it's like shes not happy. I dont know what to do.

sonnycamehome
sonnycamehome
It sounds like you're doing an amazing job taking care of your daughter, and it's very clear how much you lover her. Babies can be fussy early on, and this has nothing to do with you personally. Is it possible that you can reach out for some support? Maybe a mom's group, and maybe even some counseling to make sure you're not experiencing post partum depression? You matter and how you feel is important. You deserve some support!
SimpsonsOK
SimpsonsOK
Sonny gave some great input. Taking care of an infant 24/7 is exhausting. They have no schedule at that age, just lots of needs. Your body is still recuperating from the delivery. See if any of the hospitals have groups/classes for new mothers. If you don't have a rocking chair, consider getting one. Rocking soothes both mother and baby. When she sleeps, take a mommy break instead of trying to get things done. She will eat when she is hungry; she will sleep when she is tired. Comforting hugs.
whatswrong19
whatswrong19
i'm sorry, post partum dep is no fun. I had it too. but sounds like you are trying to do the right thing here for you child. I went through hell, extreme crazy moments that no one can imagine or understand unless they have been there, you need someone to help you out from time to time, to help give you a break. if you don't it's just going to get worse.
Sage7
Sage7
I agree with SonnyCameHome. Having been a counselor for a number of years and also having had several kids-I confess I'm a bit shocked by the diagnosis at this juncture of life! A year from now, maybe...but now? HMMM. I'd ask for a re-eval. Meanwhile, I agree-find someone who will treat you for post-partum! Regarding the mom thing...first, CONGRATS :) You sound like you're doing a great job, and are loving and kind! Sleep deprivation those first few mos are brutal (says every mother, everywhere). Probably your standards of 'doing a great job' are different than everyone else's. If you manage to get her diapers changed, keep her fed, cuddle her endlessly, and bathe her when she needs it---You're doing a great job! It's alot of transitions for reals and in your body! (Thus many of us dealing with post-partum). Be sure you sleep when you can (got anyone to take over a couple hours a day so you can catch a nap?) and eat healthy foods-skip that junk food as it'll only make you feel horrible and add nothing to you at all! Finally-yay for choosing to stay at home! It's hard but awesome. Been there and done that with the last two, after being back in the workforce within a couple of weeks with the others :O You're doing great! Get the support you need that we've all mentioned and it'll set you on a very good path to motherhood :) HUGS. I'm sure she's beautiful.