Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hey everyone,
So I've not had a post for a while and its partly because I've been ok and partly cause I dont want my fiance to read my posts.
I've been feeling very lost as of late, I dont really know how to be happy again, I feel like I need to change careers but I dont know what I would enjoy doing.
I also feel like I'm struggling on my own, I know my fiance is there for me but there is the real issue of money, and shes waiting for me to step up and be the bread winner again.
I want to focus on me and figuring things out but the more I think of it the more I see that things cant really get better, I will still be stuck doing what I hate because its what I can make money doing.
I've planned a camping trip but there is no support from the person who is meant to support me through anything, and I need to do it all without ever thinking of myself.
I dont know if I can live through life living like that, I always pictured myself being happy in my future, but that future seems to be further and further away.
Is it really the mans job to just toil the soil and work hard regardless how he feels? All the cliche sayings about men dont feel and the like are making more sense, and I feel like I've been cheated being brought up thinking otherwise. Growing up I've always thought I can be happy and love life and provide for my family and all that but its just a fairy tail.
The truth is men just work and provide, and the woman make it all worth it, with their support love and comfort. Thats not OK for me. I want to have my own happiness. I want to have my own joy and add my joy to my future wife.
I've been considering suicide again, not that I would do anything like that, but because how I cant see a happy future. it would be so much simpler ending it all. Not needing to worry how I'm going to make ends meet or how I'm going to make mine and my future wife's dreams a reality. Not struggling to make a bright future, this world is fucked anyway.
Talk to your fiancee, let her know what is going on in your head. Work with her to define a marriage that works for the two of you!
I am the wife of a man that I think believes old school that u do need to just keep providing and that's his job etc etc and yet I can't express enough to him that I'd rather go to work for twice as long if it meant he could connect with me emotionally... Everybody is different and it is a constant battle to try and mingle two different people into one healthy and happy relationship. It's tiring to say the least. But my only advice is to keep going. Keep expressing how u are feeling and research what u feel like u need and want from life because this is it- one chance and if we give up then we have nothing else.... Just bust ur gut to find that place of comfort and let it grow from there ....
Sorry if nothing I have said has helped.... Clearly I am struggling myself ...