I have some goals/tasks for myself in the morning. The first one is to go to the gym to work out (need to drop another 22 pounds); I'd love to be there and working out by 6:00 am. The second is to get to "doggy play day" at 8:00 am. A group of us "somewhat older" self employed people in the neighborhood all have dogs, and we gather to let them romp with each other for about an hour while we talk about family, dogs, politics, business, etc.

Works for me, although some times I go to bed too late and am not able to get to the gym. So the secondary goal gets me up and going.

Please, vent away!!!

Gentle hugs

yes,right there with you, trust me..but somehow,in my darkest hours, I seem to see a light,and force myself to go to it, keep on keeping on,always.

I am on the verge of that spiral too!!

Sometimes I find making a to do list helps then I can focus on that instead of on the "thoughts"

Occassionally I do something just for me. that's really rare lol
I try to keep a list of things I want to do, but never have time to do so
then if I do one thing it makes me feel that Ive accomplished and picks me up.
Or I try to think of something to make someone else feel good
Send a card to a friend or text someone to say I love you some little way to get me out of myself.

i here you i have been there sometimes i think i am still there and your are right it is so hard to get up but that is just what we have to do ..........i for some reason cant keep it together when my husband goes hunting or traping and he is gone over night he never goes for more than 3 nights because he wories about me and if i stay home i cry all the time so i get up and go visit my children and stay over at there places and visit with them and the grandchildren and i am ok so you have to find that somthing that can keep you feeling ok or at least better than you do usualy and do that ............................it can be somthing real simple call someone you are close to ..........do somthing for your self ........................read a good book ......................if i knew you better i might be able to have some better sugestions .....................and i hope you are seeing a councelor or a phicatrist and talking because that is so important everything needs to come out or you just get sicker that has been my experance i use to try and keep everything in ...............so a nother good thing you could do while you are liny in bed make sure you have a pen and some papper and right a jurnel just right what ever comes to your mind and later on dowen the rosd you can read some of it and you will be surprised at ware you have been ......................i will keep you in my prayers take good care of your self .........god bless