Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I don't feel alive anymore
I am a zombie
A shadow of my former
Vivacious
Musical
Intelligent self
I feel as if the very essence of my existence
My very soul
Has been scooped out
No
Ripped out
And replaced with a hollowness
A blackness
An all consuming black fog
That envelopes my body
And the air I breathe
And paralyzes me
So that just the thought
Of attempting anything
Other than staying in bed
Is exhausting
Moving
Eating
Doing anything other than sleeping
Is nearly impossible
It's getting harder
To fake happy
To pretend normal
To pretend I don't want to spend the day
Letting the noise in my head
Overtake me
Doing everything the EDNOS Monster wants me to
Laying in bed
Clinging to Mickey, Minnie, Lady, and my musical bear
Sewn together with Aunt Kathy's threads of love
Praying that I can find the off button
To make the horror films I have for memories
Stop
Half my energy is spent
Getting out of bed
The other half is spent
Getting around my house
I have no motivation for anything else
Including work
School
Making food
Being any resemblance of good company
Sometimes
The only reason I get up at all
Is for the love and affection of a
Three year old fluffball of love
Called
Maria
Fallon Marie
I am a zombie
A shadow of my former
Vivacious
Musical
Intelligent self
I feel as if the very essence of my existence
My very soul
Has been scooped out
No
Ripped out
And replaced with a hollowness
A blackness
An all consuming black fog
That envelopes my body
And the air I breathe
And paralyzes me
So that just the thought
Of attempting anything
Other than staying in bed
Is exhausting
Moving
Eating
Doing anything other than sleeping
Is nearly impossible
It's getting harder
To fake happy
To pretend normal
To pretend I don't want to spend the day
Letting the noise in my head
Overtake me
Doing everything the EDNOS Monster wants me to
Laying in bed
Clinging to Mickey, Minnie, Lady, and my musical bear
Sewn together with Aunt Kathy's threads of love
Praying that I can find the off button
To make the horror films I have for memories
Stop
Half my energy is spent
Getting out of bed
The other half is spent
Getting around my house
I have no motivation for anything else
Including work
School
Making food
Being any resemblance of good company
Sometimes
The only reason I get up at all
Is for the love and affection of a
Three year old fluffball of love
Called
Maria
Fallon Marie
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Do you think anxiety is genetic or comes from your environment? What are your thoughts?
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Many of you know Mr K told me to "shut your mouth" in March 2025 when we took a road trip to Alpena Michigan. Since that time, we have had lots of ups and downs but I have never intentionally hurt Mr K in anyway. And when we first started dating in 2024 he let me know, although he is an engineer by degree, he has an extremely low EQ. Overall, he is ok (not off the charts nice like other guys in...
Luv the pic Love butterflies - I collect them....
(((Hugs,Angel))).
Thank you, its exactly what deep depression feels like when i have it.
EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified) aka unspecified eating disorder) is my diagnosis. This means that I do lots of different things that are abnormal with food, but that I don't neatly fit into a diagnosis of Anorexia or Bulemia. EDNOS is the medical "catch all" for those of us who have an eating disorder but do behaviors that fall outside of AN or BN. Most people with an eating disorder have EDNOS.
The EDNOS Monster is the personification of my eating disorder. I read Life Without Ed at the insistence of my friends in the ED group here. It teaches you to look at the eating disorder as something outside of yourself, as a relationship you have. Not an illness you're forever branded with. When I began to think of it that way, the image that came to mind was an abusive, cruel, "she-devil" monster. So in my poetry, that's how I refer to it.
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