not sure what to say, except that maybe therapy isn't enough.
i am really sorry that you're where you are. it is a bit of a comforting thought that the pain will end soon, but it's a terrible thought that so will the joy, promise, hope, and dreams.
message me if you need an ear.

do you think its right to take your own live? dont you think somone bigger has the say? i can tell you you may try and end your life but if its not your time it wont happen.. so please. dont say what done is done. im not trying to make you feel bad. somone was blunt about my sucise warnings/threats. you do have much to live for . and its not worth it at all

i just relize i sounded so cold in the begining of my message. i lost alot of friends to suicide. and i use to be like that and i relize its not worth it. maybe you can check into the hospital? im sorry but if i knewwhere you live i would be calling somone to come get you or just sit with you

You need to go over it again and think about all the things in life you take for granted. There are people that love you. How would you feel if someone you really cared about made the decision to end their life. It's not up to us to decide when to die. Get more therapy and get put on the right medications. You don't need to be so insecure insecure!! Just be yourself, who gives a shit what other people think of you. That's exactly what I do. Don't care what or who says or acts about me. Wipe em off like water off a ducks back. Rethink your thinking please. You will make some people very sad. Hugs

I going to give you a little shock therapy. It might hurt but and I hope it does to some degree, simply to help you see a bigger picture outside of yourself:
You mention your wake and a horse drawn carriage with 6 white horses.
Have you thought about the anger your loved ones will feel? The confusion? Their feelings of helplessness at not being able to help you.
I think your loved ones might be too bereft to deal with booking 6 white horses and worrying about what to bury you in.
They will feel massive guilt and shame, yes shame, for the rest of their lives.
Try to take yourself out of your head for just a minute and see the wake for what it will really be.
I know what I'm talking about. I've been where you are, and I've lost people close to me.
I hope this stung you just a bit. I meant to gently shake you.
Love,
Bridget

Think about the people you will hurt if you take your own life - is it fair to them?

Look... you can take your life ... but where will that get you? No where.

If you keep on living there is always the possibility that life will get better - maybe it will, maybe it won't.. but the possibility is there.

Once you take your life that possibility is extinguished. Game OVER.

Either way you are taking a gamble. But it doesn't take an expert in cost-benefit analyses to realize which is the better gamble..... now does it?

Depression is rough and painful but another day comes. Once you attempt suicide, you can't reverse the harm and often regret the decision when it's too late. Medication and help is available. Please seek help. For yourself and the chance to be happy again.

I guess i just dont get it, i am depressed, and i never had those's thoughts. I dont know what to say because of this, but what i do know is that im sure there is something here for you, something you love.

Did you tell your therapist this? and what does he think,
I hope you can find some peace long enough just to re-think this, you never know what one week or one year will be like.

Listen...I get what you are saying...however!

I am a daughter of someone who chose suicide. You may be out of pain and misery, but when you commit suicide you are shifting all that pain and misery to your children, mother, father, brother, sister, cousin, aunts, uncles, friends, on and on! Is that what you really want for your loved ones?

I mean really...after my Mother committed suicide, 8 other of my family members followed suite in the year after her death.

And those of us left... we are devistated. We have to live every day with all the woulda, coulda, shoulda's. Wondering what it could have been that we did that could cause someone we love to choose to leave us. Did we not love them well enough? Did they not love us enough?

I understand the feelings you are describing. I understand the thoughts going through your head. I have those thought too, however please don't put your family through that trauma, it is not short lived, the pain that you leave behind after suicide lasts the rest of us a life time of pain, and confusion.

This is not meant to be harsh, or uncaring, just very frank. This is the wake of destruction you will leave behind, this is your legacy if you so choose to end your own life.

i hope you get help

What they all said and more.. What about the person that finds you dead and the devastation that it will cause them for the rest of their lives? And go ahead and tell us that no one loves you and that no one will care.. Maybe in your mind but its just not true..

I have gone through a few suicides and deaths lately and it has left me empty and angry..
Man up and stay here and suffer and learn to deal like the rest of us have had to.. Ya never know... Things might get better...