You survived it! Congrats! And i would be surprised by anyone who has a flawless second especially when you had to fend for yourself for the most part. Even with mistakes it is so focus on the accomplishment.

Yeah, this is the modern life style that we cannot avoid. Stressfull. If we live in a small fishing village in Japan, it might be better.
I do not see anyone or work. One time, someone hit my car while I was driving. My credit card was stolen a few times. I did not even use it. Now I cannot use my credit card.

Well, congrats on getting out of your old job and into a new one. Sounds like new one is not problem free however. I understand your anger and stress and I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. As you know, I can relate. I think what Peter there above said is true, that in modern day life, stress is sort of the norm. I absolutely hate it. I dream of going out and living in the woods or never leaving the house but it's not realistic.

Also, from what I have gathered from a couple of people I know who used to work in the pharmacy industry, it is a particularly stressful field. I know that is where at least some of your skills and training are, though, so it's tough.
And yes, that's great that you were able to communicate your stress and got help and learned a lot. I guess it will take a little longer to see if the kind of things you experienced on your 2nd day will continue long term.

I remember my first few weeks at my current job were hell. It got somewhat easier. It's still work, though.
I'm sorry your stress is so high. That's really hard to deal with. Hugs. W
Do you turn to your art to alleviate stress?

When I first started the job I have now, I didn’t think I was going to make. Almost 2 years later I feel much better about. Many things still stress me the fuck out, but at least I halfway know what I’m doing now. I think it will improve for you also.

first Couple of days are always the hardest. It’s a new thing so it’ll take some time to adjust but remember it’s a new start. Just try your best and everything will work out.

I wonder if I can help, since you have asked us to not reply with this, that, and thus. Going to give it a good try.

1. I totally agree with you. Totally.

2. You sound exactly like me except I was worse, .. MUCH worse. I grabbed a corporate exec by his shirt and tried to throw him through a 2nd floor window .. because I was as angry as you were over how fucked up things were. I went through job after job, after job ... good high paying jobs. Had a reputation for 'blowing up' and walking out. I DID have a 'side business' (legal) that invoiced over 1 million $$ in less than 2 years BY MYSELF.

3. This went on for years. There were actually some people afraid of me .. in the work place(s).

4. Went through the side business money on fancy cars, condo, women, fine dining ... travel vacatations, and the rest, I pissed away; long before where I ended up. Homeless in Long Beach CA. No job, sleeping in vacant buildings, showering in roach infested flop houses, and eating at shelters. I spent days on a beach bench .. mostly just staring at the ocean. I can describe the Queen Mary ship to a T. Of course, I had fucked up a marriage YEARS ago. Thank GOD I have no kids.

5. I FINALLY ended up at a Veteran's Hospital in Waco TX. They offered a 'domiciliary' for homeless veterans. First interview with an 'evaluator', I sat in a fetal position in front of her desk. "I am crosswise with the universe. Life is not working for me. I am mad as hell and don't know why. I have no idea what to do." I was (soon) diagnosed with combat related PTSD, complicated with an anger 'syndrome'. After a LOT of therapy, medication, etc we found out how to manage anger. It was KILLING me.

6. Once I learned that anger is ONLY destructive ... it is a primal (natural) emotion but becomes obsolete as humanity evolves. Think about it ... it's there, but very VERY rarely approved of .... ANYWHERE. Mine was erupting EVERYWHERE. Destructive?? Yeah, .. destroying ME.

7. Look at it this way .... we have no control over what others do. If we are going to get mad about every dumbass employer who puts a new hire on the job with NO LEAD available, we are going to spend a lot of time mad. Long line at a grocery check out, and a slow cashier trying to sell lottery tickets to a non-English speaking illegal alien makes everyone 'mad'. Yet, exploding over it? No one else does .. why should I? The problem was ME. I WAS crosswise .. with everything.

I still get angry over 'things' but I IMMEDIATELY laugh it off. It does me NO good, and can really cost me a lot. Working ANY job today is stressful ...everyone is only concerned with the bottom line and they DO NOT CARE what their employees suffer. That's just the way it is. There are no apprenticeships ...anymore .. they are not PROFITABLE. Life is hard, fast, unfair, sometimes frightening, and stressful. Add an anger complex to it and it's a wonder one can make it.

You are very angry. It's clear to me, .. I am a VETERAN of it (among other things). You must minimize it or you will create and provide your own misery which will worsen until you do (or die). It will destroy and destroy ... until you get a harness on it.

I am telling you this in order to be helpful. There is plenty of info from Google on Anger Management. It is popular because there is so much to be angry about. Thing is, ... it doesn't work.

I hope this is helpful to you ... to any degree.

". I'm proud of the fact that I was able to respectfully communicate my stress overload to someone "


***STANDING OVATION***

You should be proud. It was a rough day.

Thank you everyone. So the person I thought was a pharmacy technician is actually the head CVT (sort of like a nurse for animals). So there is no pharmacy technician right now other than myself. It did get a little easier, and they are still very willing to answer my questions and walk me through things. At the end of this month, we'll be getting another pharmacy technician, who I will be allegedly training. I'm not sure I'll be up for that by the end of the month. But we'll see. This weekend I've been nursing a bad summer cold (blecccch) so haven't really done much of anything else. I'm trying to not be so angry, like WanderingVet says, but there is so much to be angry about in this world. I can't just be some blind optimist and shake it off. I'm going to try and get back into art. I'm definitely very stressed right now. Another stressor is my insurance-- I'm in the transition process for switching from my insurance through my previous job to insurance through the marketplace. It's been a royal headache. If we're all so supposed to have health insurance, why don't the powers that be make it less of an ordeal to get it?

It sounds like they do appreciate you being on the team. They seem to want to help you succeed ... or train another person so they can let you go. I suspect it is the former.

Anger management take practice and discipline. Anger comes on VERY fast (it's primal). No matter what, .. you really don't need it ... it doesn't do anything for you. Work on it, and see if I may be right.

I do wish you all the best. Hey, you work with animals. That is very admirable.

Yeah it takes a lot of guts to share your story. However, one cannot avoid depressive or stress factors in today’s lifestyle. But, what you can change is looking at a particular situation. And with my experience, having an emotional support dog helps changing your perception towards life in the best possible way. Try it for yourself.

I'm hoping I'll be able to get a cat soon. I really need someone to love.