Depression Support Group
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I have been raised by my rich family, yep rich in money, education but I am also rich in everyday depression, sadness, grief, grudge, lonlyness; I am chained in the dark for years and not yet released; the story of my life is built of lies, anger and control but not by me.
Let me tell you something, I was raped by the age of 13 by group of boys but my parents took it the wrong way, they thought i was gay and prostitute and not even willing to "take money". But thats not true. Years passed, they prevented me leaving the house without them following or spying on me, they have to check my history on my computer, they must check my phone records and who have i been talking to. Every guy I speak with my parents turns it into an interrogation...they lost my trust tottally; Hell my little brother was once ordered by them to spy on me in the HOUSE. Things have gone worse and worse when I offered a place in a uni oversea (In Ireland). My father thought he should come with me, which he did, I am 19 yet treated like 8 years old. Not allowed to leave with my friends in the weekend, if I did my dad phone calls me every 10 minutes to check on me, not afraid for me but afraid from me. My "friends" somehow knew my father was looking after me, made fun of me cuz I was still a child, teased me and my father didn't bother a bit. Right now my father forced me to go study something that I dont want. Suicide was my next mission, I hate my life, I hate my mum mostly she is the one turned me into a puppet and mind controls me. I am her victim and infront of her friends she makes me look like the "unique child" of hers when I am not..Everyone thinks I am spoilt which is not true..
enough for now
Let me tell you something, I was raped by the age of 13 by group of boys but my parents took it the wrong way, they thought i was gay and prostitute and not even willing to "take money". But thats not true. Years passed, they prevented me leaving the house without them following or spying on me, they have to check my history on my computer, they must check my phone records and who have i been talking to. Every guy I speak with my parents turns it into an interrogation...they lost my trust tottally; Hell my little brother was once ordered by them to spy on me in the HOUSE. Things have gone worse and worse when I offered a place in a uni oversea (In Ireland). My father thought he should come with me, which he did, I am 19 yet treated like 8 years old. Not allowed to leave with my friends in the weekend, if I did my dad phone calls me every 10 minutes to check on me, not afraid for me but afraid from me. My "friends" somehow knew my father was looking after me, made fun of me cuz I was still a child, teased me and my father didn't bother a bit. Right now my father forced me to go study something that I dont want. Suicide was my next mission, I hate my life, I hate my mum mostly she is the one turned me into a puppet and mind controls me. I am her victim and infront of her friends she makes me look like the "unique child" of hers when I am not..Everyone thinks I am spoilt which is not true..
enough for now
You are in an 'all or nothing' situation. In the US, you are a 'legal adult' and (given you can support and take care of yourself), you can LEAVE.
I think your situation is the same .. whether you are in US or elsewhere. I don't think you can fix this. You need to get away from it.
As for killing yourself .. or otherwise harming yourself (or anyone else), that would be VERY foolish. Much better to leave.