Depression Support Group
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No, really, I don't have a tattoo like that on my forehead. I think it's "looser" instead.
Why is it, some people look at you and see what they want, or see what they think they see. Yeah, it's all the same shit as that old saying, which is older than my own Baby Boomer generation: "You can't tell a book by its cover..."
I've seen some really cool "art work" before and as a hypocrite, I suppose, I accepted the cover art, only to find I was wrong.
Way back, I also called it "gift wrap"...oh such pretty paper and a bow...only to find the "gift" was horrible.
I am getting so tired of people looking at me, seeing me as somebody they want to avoid, because I don't LOOK like what they would accept. I have no gift wrap, my cover art is just me, a Baby Boomer hippy looking character...white beard and all. I dress in rock-n-roll t-shirts and jeans and have for over forty years...but it seemed so much easier back then to be accepted by others. Not anymore though.
Not to generalize or stereotype here: when I lived in Sacramento California, or even down south in California...I really didn't look much different from others, yet people STILL saw the cover art and saw somebody to avoid. Sure sometimes I have a brain-to-mouth communication problem but it's not some mental condition, well, other than interverance from chronic migraines. When your brain is in constant pain...it's hard to think, much less communicate in a logical, reasonable fashion.
Hey folks, I DO have a brain, I am a logical, reasonable person...I am an arm-chair philosophy type, so what mine is a little bit odd, we are ALL a little bit odd. We all have our own beliefs and the like, sometimes what we think or believe mesh with others---sometimes it doesn't...and SOMETIMES there are some of us who, because of health issues, like chronic migraines, have problems with concentration and communication.
Fuck, folks...I'm just me, a person unlucky enough to have these health issues, something you can't SEE...and if you can't SEE them, then there MUST be something wrong with me, mentally, right?
Gimmie a damn break...I'm depressed enough already from what's going on in my life right now...yeah, you can't see it, you can't see ME the way I am inside my skull...so I MUST be some mental...
Hugs...I know the feeling. I hope tomorrow is better for you.
thanks patti22...i appreciate the thoughts. it comes and goes. some days are ok, others aren't. but that is my life right now until i can get a grasp on things. again, thank you, hope you are doing better each day too.
***Karma, of course, cursed me with a child, a son, that can spell almost anything. He's a grammar Nazi too....in two languages. Who raised that kid???***
I joke, but when I'm down...everything can pull me down more. It really is hard to shed that kickme sign.
so many years later and after four strokes...even if she can remember how, she doesn't spell right, a miscommunication from her brain.
i know about the down part for sure. for me, it's like i am in this water well, looking upwards at the sun with no hope of getting out. one day, at least that is what others say, life with "normalize" however i kinda don't believe that.
i've been through a lot in my life but NOTHING like this has ever effected me as it does.