Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I feel stuck. Like I was climbing this big hill, the hill of strength and independence and then all of the sudden, quick sand. Quick sand made up from going to work coming home and sleeping everday, made from the same tedious routine everday. And it's filled with questions. Will I ever be important to someone? Will I ever or do I ever even want to get married? Will I ever meet someone who ignites a flame in my soul again? Will I always be at my job doing the same thing everyday? Will work always consume me? Will I always work hard and still not make enough to not have to live paycheck to paycheck? Will I ever pay my debt off? These and many more consume me to the point where I just shut down. My mind can't process the things around me and I will sometimes get to work with no recollection of the travel. Then the sky becomes blue again and I feel more confident going back up the hill but sooner or later another quick sand obstacle is in my way. How do I keep going if it's the same as it is now? I keep thinking 5 years is going to pass and I will be exactly where I am now. How do I become unstuck and move on? How do you forget the past and create a new future?
Hey. I am not going to try to pretend I know exactly how you feel, and I'm not going to say you do not have the right to feel this way. Truth is, these questions are valid. They make sense and you really want the answers. It is exhausting trying so hard and feeling like you aren't getting anything back in return.
I don't think forgetting the past is what you should be focused on, but more learning from it. it is great you want to create a new future, but you want to remember that lots of what got you to where you are today, has affected you in some important way and you should recognize that. It is okay if your life is similar to what it is now in 5 years. What you want to change are your emotions, or at least learn to stabilize them and have them be more positive. I know that's easy for me to say, but you must know there are some positives you have now. I think it would be helpful for you to go out and try something new. Dare to meet new people, engage in an activity you haven't tried. You feel stuck, so embrace the discomfort and try to get unstuck. We are here for you when you are uncomfortable during this process. It's going to be scary, but I think it will be worth it. Try not to set overwhelmingly high expectations, just take it day by day. If anything, use this time as a period to look inward and work on yourself. Find out what your passions are and what you want to pursue.
When I feel stuck, I write a to-do list for myself. It typically includes things like: showering, brushing my teeth, getting out of bed, smiling, eating, maybe not in that order, and sure they may be simple, but checking them off makes me feel really good about myself.
Sending good juju your way <3