Thank you for sharing. That is sinking in depression. Need a lifeline to be pulled out. Shame can be an adversary. You want to be alone, but you shouldn't be alone. You might not want to be a bother, but you should seek out help from a trained and skilled professional. A special and important person like yourself deserves to be helped. Living with depression is a struggle, but one that you can overcome. Just might need some help. Don't feel ashamed, as we all need help. I pray this helps. God Bless.

Hi , I'm sorry u feel that way . Well I also I have hard time taking care of myself and taking a shower is a struggle to me too.my emotions are the hardest to control but it's hard especially when my my close friend my grandmother is on vacation and I have to wait on her for 5 days before I text her and tell her e very thing that happened . I only have 3 days left and she s going to come back.

Nothing is really easy . But we can fight this together .
I really do understand u.
I feel all alone too and I want to be alone to and not a bother to others .I feel that way to and yes it s painful . Sometimes we just have to help ourselves out . And I will pray for you and pls.take care of yourself!

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Please don't give up. I would advise you to seek professional help by seeing a psychiatrist who can properly make a diagnoses and determine if medication is necessary. They can also refer you to a therapist for you to talk to to help you learn coping skills. It is important to talk about your feelings. I wish you the best.