Seeing a therapist would be helpful. In addition to A.A. Things can get better
with time and help from others.

Hi there. I'm currently seeking other treatment but it's a very long waiting list. Some days are ok and some are not.

I don't know who I am or how to live as crazy as that sounds.

I just read your post on anxiety , I'm sorry I don't how to offer any advice

Verbal abuse can be so damaging. I'm sorry you experienced that growing up.

It's like your caregivers were already defining you, pre-programming you with limited beliefs, and clipping your wings before you even got a chance to define who you wanted to be.

Sadly, their negative filters on life and others...can be so damaging. I understand what you are going thru.

There will come to a point, where you are going to realize...it is just what it is...you might have lived down to someone else's poor expectations of you...instead of living up to your fullest potential.

I think you should challenge one by one limited belief or criticism you get...and realize you have the power and ability to be and do whatever you want.

Never lose hope or faith...that you are important. Your opinion and words matter...and that bumps in the road happens to all of us.

Sending you light and love!

Lavender80, I was very quiet as a child avd truthfully was very scared of my family. Over the years I blamed myself but since going to AA I have raised that it's not my fault, however I am very angry at how I was treated and I deal with anger on a daily basis.

Thank you for your amazing kind words

Nope. Not your fault! Rant away!! I am listening.. ((hugs))

Cheers Froggie

Have you gotten a sponsor yet? You need someone to call when you are struggling.

Takes a lot to reach out, Mr. Ryan. I am really glad you have joined us.

Have not read your profile yet. Dunno if you were abused nor neglected (same thing to me) as a child. There is a hint you were.

Fault? No way ... no way a child's fault.

Glad you are with AA and have been sober. One day at a time, and all you can do to stay sober. Intoxication does NOTHING for .... anyone, ... not for long at least.

I agree, you need other types of professional help. If there is a long wait, ... so be it, but seek that out. AA for one thing, therapy for other things.

You are doing all the right things. Sorry it's a long wait, but it's worth it.

We are with you, Sir. Rely on us to try to help you.

Best of luck. We have a particular group for AA THOUGH YOU ARE WELCOME to post here.

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/alcoholism

Stay on it,... rise above it all. A good, happy life is waiting for you.

Well congratulations on admitting you have a problem. That was the hardest part for me was letting it be known to others that I had an addiction plus this damn depression and anxiety. Nothing changes overnight so don’t think you not progressing. I had that problem in the beginning. I’ve been clean for 7 years now and believe it or not it wasn’t till last February that I had my first panic attack at 38. So the best I could do is try to adapt and keep fighting the good fight. You started on the right path and that’s the most important thing anyone can do. Be proud that you did cause most people can’t even do that. Feel free to message me and good for you!! Keep it up and it will all work out.

I only recently got a sponsor we haven't gone through much of the steps yet. I have a couple of phone numbers and I do use them maybe not as much as I should.

Doctors may use medication or talk therapy or both to treat depression. Those who suffer also need the empathetic support of patient, caring family and friends. The best friend anyone can have is God, who provides wonderful help in his Word, the Bible. Psalms 34:18 "God is close to the brokenhearted;
He saves those who are crushed in spirit.

How are you today?

Consider doing the following. First, try hard to forget the past, put it in a drawer, the people who did you wrong are gone and cannot truly hurt you, even if you live in the same house. It is hard, but you can do it by being aware that you are separate from them and your NOW is separate from what happened in the past. Therapy can help here. You are responsible for yourself, for making your life better, and for making the right choices. Focus on these. You can do this. The second thing is do not hate yourself, do not blame yourself. If you hate yourself, who else will love you? Forgive, man. We all make mistakes but dwelling on them will get you nowhere. Appreciate the little blessings that come your way everyday. This can give you a better perspective on life and this alone sometimes can help you heal.

Hi Lavender I'm ok I went for a swim despite feeling like shit how are you ?

LOL...omg...my favorite thing I read today "I went for a swim despite feeling like shit how are you?"

I'm not laughing at you...really laughing with you (depression robs alot...and fuck I'm going to keep my sense of humor)...b/c I've recently felt a shift in the wrong direction with my mood...and have recently started forcing myself to exercise more...and I am about to play racquetball in about an hour despite feeling like I don't want too. LOL.

But I guess forcing ourselves to do things we don't like that are actually good for us...can help us feel better in the end right? LOL

Hope you go for another forced swim today! Have an awesome day! :)