I belive You are suffering from depression. I would recommend for you to reach for medical help and be kind of yourself. If you force yourself to do things I stead of reaching for help, you'll feel.inafecuate, useles and I failure. All I saying is based on my personal experience, ofcourse every man works different. Just don't forget the brain is an organ like any other, that gets sick and need treatment. For to your primary physician. They'll point you in the right direction. You can even go to the ER if the situation is getting out of hand. And if all thos is hard, there are therapis ans even psychiatrist online that can help you while you keep your anonymity if that is an issue for you. What you going thru is not uncommon and there is a lot of ways to get better. Just please get help, if you try doing it on your own you may end up in a spiral of shame, loneliest and sadness. If you ever want to talk, feel free to send me a message. I really understand what you going thru ans is not your foult, its not who you are.

Hi flowerbell, like Peke, mentions I would reach out to your therapist if you have one or find one to talk with. I find that setting a schedule helps me. I keep a calendar and schedule my day out including wake and sleep times. I schedule meal times so I am sure to eat, house cleaning, exercise and meditation time. activities I enjoy like coloring, playing my native flute, beading,etc. I schedule each week so I have a plan of what to do. I also schedule zoom meetings with friends and family for social contact. I hope you feel better soon. Hugs.

My 18 yr old daughter was struggling with this recently. I had her start setting an alarm to get up every day. I had her set up visits with her Grandmother (she loves going over there to spend the night still). I had her list off her fave hobbies and dive into them. She found that coming out of her room and joining us in the living room, even if doing her own thing, made her less anxious. I had to bite my tongue and stop asking her to "turn that down!" LOL! But her being in the room broke the ice. It made her realize we WANT her in our lives. She was alienating herself and feeling as if WE didn't want her around. She had gotten caught in a feedback loop of despair and once we cracked her out of it she became much more social.

I get this way, too. By nature I am a homebody. Add in all this recent stay at home stuff, even *I*, the homebody, was seriously struggling with social anxiety. I needed to engage in my coping skills for anxiety. Check that meds are at a good place....did anything need to be adjusted?

Praying for you!

try doing little thing that make you feel better
like for me i would make my bed
granted i would lay in it afterword but i feel better
set goals for the day
its okay if you dont reach all of them just try