Whenever I see rain, my eyes droop and I become sleepy. I then tell myself: "Must not sleep..... There are so much things to do, life to experience". That would keep me instantly awake.

Discrimination and social indifferences are the ills of this world. Why become a victim and make yourself isolated, depressed and suicidal because of someone's prejudice? Those who inflict social prejudices are the ones who lack self-confidence and feel inferior; they lack strength and courage so they choose a minority to inflict their vitriol upon. These people are not worth wasting your precious time thinking over them. Can you not walk away and find a happy atmosphere to inhabit in? Are you experiencing discrimination and social indifferences at work and you cannot walk away because the aggressor is your boss? If so, can you not complain to HR? Or that your friends are exerting peer pressure upon you, and attempt to isolate you out of jealousy and hate? Can you not drop your toxic friends and acquaintances to find nicer people to be with? Why contemplating death as a way out just because you are being bullied and harassed? Can you not stand up for yourself and tell them: "This is enough, I won't tolerate this anymore. So scram or I will explode like a supernova". The last sentence is my ad-libbing, but I guarantee you, anyone who hears this would flee with fright. So cheer up, get up and go get them tiger !

Feeling pretty sad and alone myself today Bachstair. Depression is hard to understand for others. Please hang in there.
You are definitely not alone

I’m so sorry you feel this way. My sister used to struggle severely with anxiety and depression. It broke my heart to see her teary-eyed and isolated herself. Having a trusted friend that she could talk to anytime and a support group helped her mood to slowly improve.

It’s good that you reached out. We are here for you. I hope you will be comforted here. Continue to share. I hope things will brighten up for you soon. Praying for you. God bless.

Your definitely not alone, no one understands how it feels to have depression unless they have it. I'm feeling alone and misunderstood myself. It sucks.

I understand too. I'm sorry you are feeling so down. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

I really appreciate you all very much for reaching out. It made my day much better. Wishing everyone a good evening and nights rest . :)

Focus on you. You cannot change the world outside of you, prejudice and injustice is a part of the balance. Learn to observe without labeling something as good or bad. Just experience it as it is. These are a few quotes that help me;

"Do not seek outside yourself."
"suffering comes from attempting to control the uncontrollable."
“Choose not to be harmed — and you won't feel harmed. Don't feel harmed — and you haven't been.”

its crazy the loneliness, the lack of desire or motivation to get out and meet someone else or even to be able to make friends. Its like even though we know we cant have relationships with them, its only them we want, however we dont want them they are not good for us. its nuts and how come we cant meet eachother in person?? A wise man once told me...what is the point of surviving if your not happy?