I've pretty much gone backwards after some events and a good day is getting out for a walk. Which I force myself to do each day. House was pretty much to hoarding which I've cleaned up over the last week. I've know a few to get off meds and where just starting a new relationship and a new life when I saw them last. One of my biggest regrets is I never kept in touch but gives me hope at any rate.

Getting out of bed is a start so that is very good. It can be so hard to want to face the day especially in the winter so that is a positive step in the right direction.

I'm semi-functioning. I am not where I want to be, but it not as bad as I could be either. Heh.

One thing I find that helps is creating a small goal that would be easy for you to achieve. Something that is easy, but makes you feel like you did something. Perhaps you could choose to walk for 10 minutes, or make the bed, or dust a table. Try to do your one goal each day. It will help build your confidence and make you feel like you can do something. Then when your confidence is built you can add another small goal to do each day. And keep slowly adding goals until you are doing more and more.

Another tip is to write down your goals each day on an index card. It is a good reminder and you feel a sense of accomplishment to check off a goal that was met.

Hope that helps.

Thank you Dreamshadow and BlueYonder. I remember why at one time this forum was my life support. In my mind I am not a Lazy person but for some reason I feel that way. Maybe Its my mothers nagging voice. I feel SO guilty all of the time that I cannot do everything that a normal person can do. I guess I need to take tasks in small doses. and stop setting myself up for big disappointment when I don't function the way my mind has it set up for me to function..I want to stop feeling like a loser and get back to normal.I have3 been working on a maters degree and I am afraid that I will have to get done and actually be apart of the real world. Does any of you get disability benefits?

Two years ago I was getting out and walking in the malls .......I have been in this depression for about 9 years last year I took a dive ....and am still in recovery and I do get up in the morning I do just the house work I have to do and the rest of the time I am on the couch watching tv or on my I pad I have not been getting out enough not walking in the malls and I am now in very bad shape not good for the heart ......it is hard to get my self to do what I need to do I just have to fight to do more. all the time I find that when I can make my self get exercise I do feel better .....I have been thinking a lot about why I can't get motivated and just get up and do the things I need to do ......I think at first it was a form of passive suside so that I would get so out of shape I would just have a heart atac and pass away ...but now I find I want to stay here I have a good life and I want to stay and still I am finding it hard to do what I needs to do .......I do see a phicatrist ..I am on meds .....I don't think more meds are the answer .....unless they have one that will make me get up and do what I need to do ...... So I have no answers I am sorry the only thing I do is fight the depression every day ...as I have always done ....I have been better and I have been worse but I have never been without some level of depression.....so all I can do is fight ...I live one day at a time ....there were times I had to live one hour at a time one Minuit at a time I am so happy those days are past .........but what is going on now is a great concern to me and I have not told my doctor about it breaking my one advice I give everyone you must tell your doctor exactly how it is inside of you .....so when my next appointment comes I will have to tell him .......I feel embraced to have to tell him how I am behaving .....take care .....god bless

Thank you muskrattinger. I feel very much like you do. Like if I am in such bad shape maybe my body will give out and I will just die. Though I am pained to hear how you feel. It gives me some comfort to know I am not the only one feeling this way and am not the only one struggling to lead a productive life.

Katy, your reply number three sounds so much like where I am at. I am not alone it seems.
Along with that I am on disability and trying to finish a schooling program (it's not going real well but I am still at it)

If you have questions message me if you want to.

Thank you for your posts!! Take care of you!!!

It all depends on how bad my depression is as to how much I am going to accomplish in a day. I have learned that the longer I lay in bed, the harder it is to get up. What I have started doing is to get right up, go in and take care of my shower, etc... get dressed and walk my dog. If I didn't have a dog, I would just go for a walk. Getting out of PJ's and getting the bed made, helps tremendously. I go in spurts with my depression. Keep posting and hopefully you will get the answer you are looking for, or at least some of it. Hugs GB