Been a long time since I posted here.

Sometimes it do work, going to the doctors, medications, and so on. It took some time but I finally found a medication combo that is actually working out. Its a combo of Effexor, Risperdol, and Mirtazapine.

Finding the right treatment can be a crapshoot. No two people react the same to medications and the doctors have no way of knowing for sure if a medication is right for you or not, all you can do is go with any recommendations and see where it takes you. Sometimes it works, sometimes it don't. If it don't, try something else.

The most important thing in all this is not to loose the willingness to keep trying. That above all else is what will lead you to a better place.