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Somebody please give me a reason to live

akacountrygirl
akacountrygirl

I have advanced cirrohis of the liver and it is causing other complications.  Doc found a spot on my lung Tuesday.  In terrible pain.  Pain doc cut off meds due to complications with the liver and breathing.  Acute bronchitis.  Our hospital does admit me even when I go in with chest pain.  What kind of health care is that???? 


I worked in Cardiology for 11 years.  I know the chest pain protical. 


I have two types of insurance so I know that isn't a problem.


Pain is unbearable and can't get help.  Pain doc took me off all meds because of lung problems.  Goody, goody now I get to go through withdraws while I am already anxious and sick.


mysensitiveheart
mysensitiveheart
I know from vast experience that our health care system and insurance guidelines are extremely heartless and severely messed up . I really have no actual advice for you but feel so empathetic regarding your impossible ordeal . Can you see if the Dr . wont at least wean you off the meds or is he that irresponsible ? I know Chronic Pain intimately so my heart goes out to you deeply ! I am so sorry for what you are going through ..I hope you don't mind if I say many prayers for you to somehow mend , to have your pain somewhat , somehow alleviated , for any joy that is possible , for peace of mind and most importantly for serenity !! Prayers somehow have saved my life quite seriously many times . With much warmth !
billwfriend
billwfriend
are you on transplant list for liver? sorry your not being given good news right now....I do not know what to say either....hugs
Gladdmatt
Gladdmatt
How horrible and sad. Can you contact a lawyer or social services? IMHO you need to feel empowered in this situation, despite all the pain and health issues and horrific behavior of others. I've learned through therapy that the times I don't want to live anymore are the times I feel disempowered to change whatever it is that is taking away my will to live. Take some sort of action; heck, call the local news station and tell them your story and how the system is mistreating you. I will pray for you.
Community LeaderThePepperMan
ThePepperMan
I am so very sorry for all you are going through.

Gentle hugs
whatswrong19
whatswrong19
I like Gladmatt's suggestions, call the news station or social services or someone, that is just horrible. I'm so sorry for what you are going through. HUGS to you !
4nkrgg
4nkrgg
I have gone through deep, dark times thinking it couldn't get any worse. I was so helpless.

But everyday I'm so grateful and thankful to be alive only because of His grace and mercy. I now know that all of us were created by and for Him with a special purpose.

I truly believe He has a special purpose for you, too.
mlr0853
mlr0853
accupunture? 211 google with state for all social service help...
akacountrygirl
akacountrygirl
Thank you all for your kind words. They do help. I believe in a Highpower and Having a purpose.
akacountrygirl
akacountrygirl
The past month I have changed quite a few things in my life. I quit drinking alcohol, changed my diet to include lots of fruits, veggies, no or very little salt, no chips/junk food and of course none or very little sugar. I AM FEELING FANTASTIC! I am smoking quite a bit again but it too is going to get less and less. I had almost quit completely 3 months ago ( 3-6 per day) but now I'm back to a pack a day. I also started on the Harvoni for Hep C and have had nerves severed in my lower back.

I just can't believe how good I have been feeling! I often stayed in bed because of so much pain and literally felt myself dying. I do believe in God and I do believe my prayers were answered. Otherwise it would be as quick as night and day.

Much love to anyone questioning suicide. Hold on because it will get better.
Heidiclark
Heidiclark
So glad for you! Thanks for the update,
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