Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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lonelyinNY 04/07/2009

WELL,THINGS ARE DEFINATELY GETTING TO ME AGAIN ITS LIKE MY MIND IS TRYING TO EAT ME ALIVE..WITH THE COLD WEATHER COMEING BACK IN I A WORRIED ABOUT NO PROPANE,NO FIRE WOOD,NO MONEY,NO HEAT.I WAS HOPENG WE WERE PAST ALL THIS STUPID COLD..THIS WEEKEND IS EASTER AN IT MIGHT AS WELL BE THE STRESS OF CHRISTMAS BECAUSE MY KIDS ARE EXPECTING THE EASTER BUNNY TO BRING LOTS OF STUFF LIKE USUAL BUT THE EASTER BUNNY IS BROKE...SINCE MY ACCIDENT AND NOT BEING ABLE TO WORK I CANNOT DO FOR MY FAMILY LIKE I USED TO AND I FEEL LIKE SUCH A FAILURE...THE KIDS DONT UNDERSTAND AND HELL EITHER DOES MY HUSBAND.WANT,WANT,WANT IS ALL I HEAR DAY IN AND DAY OUT.KIDS WANT WHAT EVERYONE ELSE HAS AT SCHOOL,HUBBY WANTS NEW TOOLS,PARTS FOR HIS TRUCK.ECT.ECT.ECT..I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO EXPLODE..I AM DOING THE BEST I CAN TRYING TO COPE WITH EVERYDAY NECCESETIES,UTILITIES,FOOD,TOILET PAPER,PET FOOD BUT ITS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH...MY FAMILY DOESNT UNDERSTAND WHY ONCE WE HAD SO MUCH AND NOW WE DONT..WHY DOES SANTA AND THE EASTER BUNNY SUDDENLY HATE THEM?? I JUST WISH THE EARTH WOULD OPEN UP AND SWALLOW ME..I KNOW THESE THINGS MIGHT SEEM TRIVIAL TO SOME BUT NOT TO ME AND I HATE THE PERSON I HAVE HAD TO BECOME......

deleted_user 04/07/2009

lonelyinNY I dealt with the same things when I was younger, now I have even more respect for my mom for getting us through hard times. Please don't feel that way it is not in your control, I once saw my dad very upset that he could not get my brother a birthday present, it put a lot of pain in me, more than having give up amenities myself. I hope you can stay strong and things improve for you and yours. be well

deleted_user 04/07/2009

this would be a great time to show your family what it is like to truly have nothing, --take them to give to and serve others less fortunate maybe?

Perhaps they need to realize how good they actually have it, and say "thank you" to you, rather then endless demanding.

deleted_user 04/07/2009

I have also dealt with some of the things you talk about here. It is harder than most people can realize, trying to provide and not being able to, yet everyone is looking for you to do something about it. My heart goes out to you. What my kids remember is the love, not really what they did and didn't get growing up. Get creative if you can and find another way to make Easter a celebration. There has to be a cheap way to make it fun for the kids and easier on your anxiety level!

deleted_user 04/07/2009

Hi Tammy, I sent you a message, since our chat got messed up, we were unable to talk, I had no idea you were feeling so down and out. sorry girlfriend, do you all have dollar stores out there? sometimes you can get bags of candy and little trinkets, maybe color eggs, kids always like that kind of stuff.
Heres a thought, we are strapped to, little money, but this saturday there will be about 6 easter egg hunts going on in town and im gonna take mine to one of them, usually through a church, park district, or school, but im sure the kids would enjoy that..
you hang in there girl, this will pass, Im
also depressed more and lonli at holiday time since I have no family here, I miss the family functions..i'll give you my # and you can call me this weekend. Im always here to listen....hugs lori

lonelyinNY 04/07/2009

LESS FORTUNATE,THAT HAS BEEN US SINCE THE DAMN ACCIDENT RUIEND MY LIFE.I ALWAYS WORKED TWO JOBS JUST TRYING TO MAKE ENDS MEET AND GIVE MY FAMILY A DECENT LIFE.THEY DESERVE ELECTRIC AND HEAT,WHICH WE HAVE WENT WITHOUT PLENTY.I HAVE CRIED AND LITERLEY MADE MYSELF SICK HAVEING TO BEG FOR FOOD AT FOOD PANTRIES...I DIDNT MEAN TO MAKE MY KIDS SOUND LIKE SPOILED BRATS .I JUST FEEL THEY DESERVE BASIC NECCESSITIES AND A LITTLE HAPPINESS TOO.ITS NOT THIER FAULT I AM NOW A FAILURE..IT HAS BROKEN MY HEART IN TWO ,TO HEAR MY KIDS SAY THEY ARE COLD AND HUNGERY.THEN WHEN I CANNOT SUPPLY FOR THEM AND SUDDENLY THE HOLIDAYS ARENT EVEN PROMISEING ANYMORE ,THEY THINK THEY DID SOMETHING WRONG....

deleted_user 04/07/2009

Your kids don't sound spoiled. And yes, happiness is not asking for to much. I'm sorry you are going thru this. Just like that an accident can change everything.

Can family help you out? Maybe some type of agency?(((hugs))))

deleted_user 04/07/2009

food pantries are there to help, and I've utilized them myself on a number of occasions in life. I prefer not to think of it as begging.

Also, if my kids were cold and or hungry I would not have internet service.
idk if you do or not, but I would recommend letting it go in favor of food / heat, etc if you do.

Don't hate yourself, you are doing and trying the best you can under the circumstances. Ask for help if you need to, from wherever you can get it. No shame there. Peace to you and yours.

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