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So, Um, what do they call this?

Punkee
Punkee
Helplessness? Hopelessness?
I don't know.

Where to begin..
I feel like a failure..
I feel like a jerk.
I feel like I quit everything I do.
I feel like I won't have a successful life.
I feel like there is no reason I am here.
I feel like I have no purpose in life.
But I don't want to die...
In no way shape or form am I suicidal.
I'm depressed, extremely.
But not suicidal.
What exactly is wrong with me?
I also feel ashamed.
Ashamed because I love my parents..and if they EVER knew i felt like this, I feel like they'd blame themselves. And It's not their fault. I don't want them to think or feel like their daughter is crazy. I don't want my friends to think I'm crazy. Or my family...I'm scared..And so I hold it all in and keep myself feeling hopeless, worthless, and without light at the end of the tunnel.
Sara017
Sara017
I feel like that very often hun, I wish I had some advice, but heres a *great big hug*
Punkee
Punkee
Thank You Sara.
Punkee
Punkee
But what can I do about it?
Sara017
Sara017
Try as much as possible to keep your mind off of it. Watch something that makes you laugh.
Punkee
Punkee
hahaha That's funny because I was just watching a movie that was really depressing. But I guess that could be part of the reason that brought me to this, or worsened it because I felt like this before.
deleted_user
deleted_user
do you have access to a counselor or a md that could help you?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Watch my vid i uploaded. here it is:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wffwg7pA0t8
deleted_user
deleted_user
um, wait, maybe that will make things worse. idk.
Punkee
Punkee
Not exactly. I used to go to a counsellor about a year ago, after the sexual harassment I suffered, but it didnt seem to help. I wish I could go back, but I don't think my parents insurance covers it anymore.
deleted_user
deleted_user
ive been thru a handful of counselors, sometimes it's - unfortunately - a process of finding the right one.
Punkee
Punkee
No no no. I LOVED my counsellor. He was great.
I think it was more my fault why it wasnt helping.
Punkee
Punkee
Really, Is there anyway out of this?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Well is there a way that you could talk to your parents to see if they could get someone good for you to talk to?..you seem to have a good relationship with them...I would think they would want to do anything to help you...and your not crazy kiddo.....talk to them...see what they would say...to many secrets will eat at you up.
If not talking to your parents is not a option..most schools have programs to help students...do you know if your school has one?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sorry...I probally made no sense....with my last reply...if you have questions let me know..
Punkee
Punkee
I'm cyber schooled. And, I do have a good relationship with my parents...BUT not to the point that I can talk about everything with them. The secrets are what drive me insane. But they're secrets that I can't tell my parents because I know they'd be disapointed and I don't want them to blame themselves for it.