Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Thank you for your kind words on my last post. I am just a day or two from my first appointment.....it's my first time getting psychiatric help and not just pills from my general doctor. (well, I saw a psychologist a million years ago and that did nothing to help)
Anyway, I'm having a really rough time. If it weren't for a few very important ties I'd wish I could just lie down and give up. I'm so exhausted from all this. I feel like nothing will ever get better. I'm disposable at my job and they let me know it. I'm alone and away from my loved ones, most of the time. I live in a shit hole of an apartment. Today I wished for all the world I could have come home to a hug and somebody saying it'd be okay, but I don't have that.
My appointment is just for testing, but I'm trying to not think of it like that. It will be weeks until a real appointment. In my head that is like being told "Oh, you only have to cross this vast expanse of desert and there's water on the other side. No big deal"
I'm so tired.
Anyway, I'm having a really rough time. If it weren't for a few very important ties I'd wish I could just lie down and give up. I'm so exhausted from all this. I feel like nothing will ever get better. I'm disposable at my job and they let me know it. I'm alone and away from my loved ones, most of the time. I live in a shit hole of an apartment. Today I wished for all the world I could have come home to a hug and somebody saying it'd be okay, but I don't have that.
My appointment is just for testing, but I'm trying to not think of it like that. It will be weeks until a real appointment. In my head that is like being told "Oh, you only have to cross this vast expanse of desert and there's water on the other side. No big deal"
I'm so tired.
Still, I wish I could take some time off from the whole world. Just let me lay down this baggage for a bit and rest. That I could pick up again like I was never gone. I doubt my job would let me tho.