I know I vent on here a lot but for some reason it just helps to let it out and have you nice people put your comments on here. A quick update for those of you who don't know:
6 months ago I told my fiance we should take break, he took it as a break up and seemed to move on, I did not and am regretting the decision and want more than anything to be with him again.
We've been seeing each other, he was feeling smothered, wanted a little break, but the break ended early because I found out I was pregnant.
Pregnancy ended up being ectopic and I lost the baby.

Now I am feeling like I have lost a baby AND him. Not that the second is true, I just feel that way. I know it is stupid but when I was pregnant after the shock wore off I was happy! I felt like we were really going to work things out and we were getting along so well. We are still getting along well but now that I'm not pregnant anymore he doesn't have a reason to stay and I'm worried that I will not get him back. I know having a baby is not a reason to stay with someone, I am not saying that. It is just that he was being so supportive and we were having fun together. We have plans together this weekend. Well actually I made plans for us and have a nice surprise. I'm excited but I can't shake this nagging feeling that I will lose him. I don't know what I'll do without him. I can't picture life without him.

Feeling so sad. I've been sleeping 12 hours a night and even when I finally get out of bed it takes me a couple of hours to get going. I'm not working full time because I'm finishing up my nursing degree. I try to stay busy with studying but there is only so much studying one can do. I feel like I'm going to fall into another deep depression over this.