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emotionsbylinds
emotionsbylinds

I know I’ve posted here a lot lately but I just need support. I’m so down and I’m in so much pain. It all feels so pointless and I hate myself. I am nothing. I’m alone. I have my family which I know is more than what some people have, but I’d like to have even just one friend. I have an assignment due for class tomorrow and I don’t know how I’m gonna find the motivation to complete it. I had to drop out of college last year because of my issues and now I’m back and maybe I wasn’t ready. Maybe I’m just a failure. I’m not in crisis or anything. But I just want some support. I do see my therapist tomorrow, which is such a relief. But I’m struggling in the moment. 

Carolin57
Carolin57
Hello, so sorry to here you are struggling. I can only offer an ear if that helps.
Carolin57
Carolin57
I think Einstein said " Failure is success in progress". I am sure there are many things you have succeeded at, the trick is to get back up when you feel down. Expect the world does not tell us what to lean on in the getting up again. You can lean on DS.
etohbegone
etohbegone
Sorry to here you feel so badly. Pain can intensify the feelings you are having. For me, journaling and listing gratitudes were helpful. Hope you feel better.
TotalRegret
TotalRegret
Hi EBL. I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. Is there a counselor at college you can talk to? Someone who can plan with you so that you don't feel so overwhelmed?

Maybe some of it relates to your statements that you 'hate yourself' and that you don't have 'a single friend?' I guess I'm stating the obvious here, but you have areas of self-esteem and self-worth that need addressing. If you believe that you have no value then you then assume that nobody else sees value in you, so why would they want to be your friend?

Self-worth is a really difficult thing for us to nail down if we listen to that constant negative self-talk that gets played in our head, over and over. It takes practice to even recognize that we're doing it, and more practice to actually challenge the truth of it (or lack of truth). Then we also have to learn to replace those negatives with positives and it's a constant battle at first. You've probably had years of telling yourself that you're not good enough, so it's going to take some time to break those lies that you listen to.

Lastly, self-worth comes not from what you do or what you achieve. It's defined by your value system - your values define who you are and so, inherently, you have worth. It's only going to be when you love yourself that you'll be able to accept that others can love you too. Hope that makes sense! TR
jstar845
jstar845
Hello, Thanks for reaching out. It's understandable it's tough right now but please know you are not alone. I admire your daily fight to get through this. At times we feel lonely, hurt and need motivation. Please don't give up. I admire your strength. We may feel down but we can pick ourselves back up. I see you are a amazing person who needs to see their self -worth. It may help you to work on some goals write out about 2 to 3. Also, some plans that may help you reach them. Also, try journaling and some activities to clear your head. Continue to see therapist, post and get support from others. Hugs!