I am still getting used to the idea that I don't have to hold everything in any more and that I can come here to DS and vent when I need to . Well, now is one of those times. I am mad right now that I just feel like screaming. Back at the beginning of November I asked my mom to stay out of our lives and she agreed that she would. Today she has tried three times to call us and I am just crazy with rage about it. I am ignoring all of her efforts to make contact with us, which is the best way to handle it even though I want to scream in her face!!!! She has done a lot of damage to a lot of people over the years and I just hate her so much!!!!! It's hard to admit that I have a nut case for a mom----I feel so ashamed that I'm related to her. It's so unfair. What the hell did I do to deserve this? I try to be a good person but I am still cursed with nut cases for parents and all I can do is say "Why me?" Not that I would wish my parents on anyone else because that would be cruel, but still......why me? I don't have the energy for this! I am trying to get better and stronger and recover from this horrible illness and it's really hard enough without family getting involved. It's really hard for me right now to think about anything positive. I wish I could. I hate this! Thanks for listening and maybe some day I won't feel so much shame about my parents. I hope that day comes some day. It's really not my fault...it really isn't.