I have written before about my depression and my fiance died and how I have a seasonal job but needed to get something else. Well now the money situation is getting worse so I decided to call a temp agency today and I am avoiding making that call. I should have done it early but started doing work so now I decided to call at 1 PM. I am afraid and nervous. So many people have been telling me there are no jobs but many people on this site have been encouraging me and say that there are. I work hard at my other job but it does not last all year. I am always sad and depressed and also nervous. Sometimes I think I should write on the anxiety website because it gets so bad. I am so afraid of life. People always say something like you never know what life will bring you but I do. It is always avoiding one disaster after another and I live life in fear. And it is always when I think things are a bit better when Wham! another big problem. But my greatest fear is an interviewand starting a new job where I feel like the office weirdo. I am sad and anxious and so nervous. How does anyone else cope with it. What kind of life is this when you are always afraid?

QP