I haven't felt this bad since 2015. I hate it. I know exactly what's going on, I'm no stranger to depression but I can't get the motivation to get out of bed today even though I know it would help. It's 2:30 p.m. and I'm still in bed. My husband jokes that I'm a grizzly bear. He knows about my depression. I don't know if he doesn't realize how bad I feel or if he just doesn't know how to handle it.
A coworker said something interesting to me the other day. She said her daughter had told her she thought she was depressed. Her response to her daughter was you're not depressed because you still make it to work.
I realized that most people have no idea how much I'm struggling. On the outside I put on a happy face and seem put together. Sometimes I just wish i could scream "I'm not ok!" Because I'm not. But, I still make it to work and appear successful and happy. I may be successful but right now, I'm not happy. I can't even get out of bed on my days off.
My cat just passed away. I am devastated. Is there anyone there who can chat with me? Thank you.
I am 63, and have been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety, Depression, and Avoidant Personality Disorder. I have been on meds for 30+ years. I find ways to stop myself from being happy and successful. And I isolate, withdrawing when anyone tries to get close to me. Looking back at my life, it is a series of missed opportunities and unfulfilled potential. I'm so used to feeling bad that it seems...