Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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distarr 05/28/2018

i have been so strong the last couple of days but within the last two hours I feel myself going down, I hate this so much this is so heartbreaking just when I think everything is good this happens I can’t even go a week without feeling this way.

is it all triggered by my ex psychopath? Is it a disease? I have been diagnosed with bipolar so I think it’s a bit of both, I try and stay strong but it seems that I can’t.

I am so sick of all this pain, I have had suicidal thoughts starting when I was 15, I have never tried but as I grow older it is getting worse, I have always lived in city until eight years ago when I moved to a small town I can’t meet any friends here and the only boyfriend I have had for the last eight years was a for real psychopath and I try to stay strong and heal but it’s the he most difficult thing I have ever done, I am so alone except for a couple online support groups

threw the abuse and brainwashing there becomes a trauma bond that is like an addiction and no matter how bad he was I still love him I know it’s really sick and twisted, I really hope I can make it threw this, I have two Theapists but I know that’s up to me to stay away from him, he is trying to contact me yet I was very strong last week but now if he contacted me right now I don’t know what I would do...

im just so sick of being sick, I am so sick of hurting constantly, having to wear a mask just not to have a breakdown at work, will this ever end?

SimpsonsOK 05/28/2018

It will, or at least we get to have some long spaces without it. Keep learning about that trauma bond. It is very real. Yes, mine kept periodically contacting me. Never turned out well for me. We're still here for you. Healing and comforting hugs.

distarr 05/28/2018

Thank you, it’s so hard today I am thinking of him so much and I know I can’t even see him to save myself but when I feel this myself preservation goes out the window, thank u for replying it’s good to know someone is listening, and hugs to you

ar_row 05/28/2018

If you have been with a narcissist/psycho
there are many utube videos on this subject. A lot of knowledge, exp , compassion from folks like us. Helped me tremendously. I would get a 2nd opinion on the bipolar. Trauma will mess with your moods. Don't let someone label you.
Check out the videos just do a search for "narcissist " You are not alone in this, and its not your fault.

CatinMichigan 05/28/2018

Sounds like you're being strong and staying away from your ex-psycho/narcissist...try to continue doing so. Don't give up, you've got this. I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.

distarr 05/29/2018

Thank you both so much for the replies it gets so hard and I am staying strong on the outside but on the inside I am dying I had no contact for three months now it feels as that I’m starting over the only thing that helps me is that I didn’t see him part of me feels guilty but most part knows I finally did the right thing

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