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sick of life

mystie
mystie
Im so tired of being lonely, excessively tired and trying to struggle every month in a viscous cycle of my crappy life. I am so far behind in bills. Ive been trying to go to college to better myself but now cant get any loans to pay. How the fuck are poor ppl like me supposed to get out of this shitty cycle if they cant get the help they need to continue with school to get a better job.

It is hard too because I am in the middle of stopping one med to start another for my severe depression (and pdoc says Im treatment resistant depression).

I tried joining a penpal site for ppl to talk to but all it is, is ppl wanting love. And I dont want a relationship right now for many reasons.

Sorry Im just venting because Im so lonely and I have NO ONE to talk to about any of this. As for therapy, I cant afford to pay and am on a at least 6 month wait list for free (12 sessions).

I am feeling so suicidal again. I don't know how much more I can honestly take.
mystie
mystie
leeigh you are probably right like the others and need a new pdoc. My pdoc is pretty good and an anxiety specialist. The seroquel helps my anxiety (although not my weight) but he can't seem to find a med for depression. I have heard of others combining meds and I don't know why he has tried this. I have to wait at least 7 days now being off cymbalta. I guess there can be a serious reaction if I start to early. So I have another 5 days to go...it's been hell reducing for a few weeks and not off the cymbalta. The withdrawl has been horrible. Feels like electricity going through my head.
I am hoping to find some way to get back to school but I just don't know how.
I am seeing someone next week about bankruptcy. It is not really the route I want to take but as the bills get higher and higher and I can't pay the whole amount it is just getting to be a bigger hole.
DownNotOut622
DownNotOut622
I would just like to add one suggestion on the college issue. There is a new federal initiative called the Individual Development Account. This is a matched savings account for low and modest income (up to 200% of poverty). For every dollar you save, the program matches with $2. Usually the purchases are for one of three "long-term assets", and that includes both college and technical school. Here's the link for more information, but feel free to PM me if you have questions and I would be happy to help.

http://cfed.org/programs/idas/

Perhaps this will help you meet the amount you need. Take care.
mystie
mystie
downnotout....thank you for the link. Unfortunately I am in Canada and this looks like something the United States is doing.
But thank you for the thought!