Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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TC40
TC40
I am having a seriously bad episode of depression. I wish God would just take me. I don't want to live anymore. I am a messed up Failure. All I can do is just sit here. I don't feel like moving, I just feel dead inside. I sleep and I stare into nowhere. I just can't describe how I feel. I haven't had this bad of a problem in a long time. I have had some triggers recently. A friend of mine died from the same cancer that I had. I have also had some family problems. But I was already standing on the slippery slope. I think these things were just icing on the cake or the straw that broke the camels back. All I know is that I feel awful so awful. I wish that I could just lay down and not wake back up. I'm supposed to go to a family function tomorrow and I just don't feel up to it. I want to cry the tears just don't come I feel dead inside. I just don't know what to do to make myself feel better. I'm tired of hearing things like snap out of it or just be happy. The people that say things don't realize what harm they do. If it were that easy don't they think I would just do it?? Don't exactly want to feel this way. People don't realize that it's a chemical imbalance sometimes it's both situational and chemical but sometimes it's just chemical and people just don't get that. Today my mom said go for a walk, like that's going to change everything. I just think that I don't have to work right now I go back on Tuesday. I just want to feel better I don't want to feel like this. Thank you for listening
drew4lostluv
drew4lostluv
Guess what. I'm glad you fought through your cancer, I am glad that you are here with me right now. I want you to know that I have been where you have been. I know what you're feeling. Please message me or someone else that is a true friend of yours. Don't listen to these people promoting death. If you would like a woman to talk to I am OK with that but please talk to someone with a more positive outlook. Trust me I've been where your at. Recently actually. I want you here. Others want you here. You have family that love you despite what you think. I wish you well.
Victorious
Victorious
I wish I could say something that would make you feel better and lift up your spirits but I can offer you a lending ear and a shoulder to cry and lean on.

-Victorious
deleted_user
deleted_user
I've been feeling the same way as you so please don't think you're alone. Being as it's the the holiday there were bbq's and parties to go to but I couldn't go to a single one because I'm so fatigued and unhappy, I would just look like a fool around people who are carefree and having a good time. Hang in there.
sadiegirl13
sadiegirl13
TC40, I know the incredible suffering you are going through right now. I was here not long ago myself. You are so strong, keep it up. If you don't feel like walking today, don't; if you can't handle the family function tomorrow, stay home. You should do what you are ready to do, and if you can't do those things right now, no problem.

Do you journal? Have a therapist? Take meds? Is any of it useful right now to you?

I hope you are feeling better very soon. There are better days somewhere ahead. ((hugs))
TC40
TC40
I was finally able to take a bath. At least I don't stink like dirty butt anymore. Ha ha. I just feel hopeless like my life is just this big screwed up mess. I called my psychiatrist and she never called me back. I ate a little something and a friend of mine called me that I haven't talked to in a while that was nice. I just feel alone in the world. Like an outcast. I never had kids I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. That is part of my hesitation about going to my family's house tomorrow. Everyone there has at least one kid. They're always talking about their childbirth and their babies. Etc. and I just sit there. It's like I don't fit in anywhere I go. I feel like people look at me as less than a woman because I don't have kids. I just feel like crap.