I'm sorry you're in such a dark place. Really. I definitely know the feeling. I have to force myself to get up and brush my teeth, wash my face, it's all a chore, and I used to love it. Not even exaggerating...I have a Sonicare, so I actually used to love brushing my teeth, they felt all nice and dentist-clean. Now...just another thing to be bothered with. Only on very, very rare days can I take any pleasure in any of it.

Sorry I don't have any real advice...if I knew you in real life I would come and do your nails and give you a pedicure (used to do it for a living). Wish I could do more, do something.

Big hugs.

Sounds like you are in the midst of quite the depressive episode, and I'm sorry for it. Maybe the antidepressants that you are on just aren't enough. Maybe you need a mood stablizer to work with it. Once you can get out of the depression black hole, you will start caring again. You'll paint your nails, and do your hair. Maybe until you feel the yen to do these things, you could work on doing one at a time each day. Shower one day, take care of your hair one day, etc. As much energy as it takes, you almost always feel better when you feel clean, and your teeth are brushed. Hang in there. Things have got to get better. x

I've been taking a mood stabilizer for six months and have tried 3 different anti-depressants in that time. Things have steadily gotten worse. I guess it's back to the pdoc for more med changes but I sure am tired of it all. I really feel like I don't care about anything anymore.

Wow, am so sorry to hear this. Yes, I agree that a trip to the doc is in order. Don't give up, as there re many, many meds on the market for this, and I am confident that you'll find a combination that works for you. Will keep good thoughts for you, and hope you'll keep us posted and let us know how you're doing. Hugs x

Not caring is a horrible place to be. I know what you mean. I feel guilty when I get there, I try to make myself care about things, but how can you make yourself care when you just don't care? Impossible. Fake it til you make it they say. How long can you keep faking it and what if you never make it?

You are sliding down dear friend, and I wish I could do something to turn it around and lift you back up again. You can still hang it together enough to work and I truly admire that strength in you. To be able to get up and get showered and dressed and walk to work and make it through the day and do all your tasks whilst feeling this horrible inside must be so difficult when you feel the pain of depression and futile pointlessness.

Sending you warmth and comfort and understanding.

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I can relate to it all too well too. If I didn't have to get up and shower for work I don't think I would do it. May I ask if you've talked to your psychiatrist about all the changes since the antidepressants started? I know that may not be the whole answer but maybe they could change something since clearly the antidepressants aren't helping like they should.

One thing I'm going to do and maybe could help you is to make myself make an appointment for something related to taking care of yourself-mine is to get a haircut which I've been putting off for a very long time because I just don't care what it looks like. Maybe make an appt. to get your nails done? I know it seems small but it's just another way we're telling ourselves we're not worth the time to take care of.

I'm not saying any of this will work miracles but I guess anything is worth a try if it can even help a little to get things going in a different direction or give you a glimpse of how you used to feel. Know that many of us can understand and are here for you. You are worth taking care of even when you don't believe it...in the meantime keep reaching out-sending out good thoughts to you...