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Just took a shower and that is when the screaming fit hit. Frightened the hell out of me, but they were long and sounded like depths of hell to my ear. I remember going through them during a divorce ages back, but these were FAR different and now I am very afraid.
deleted_user
Are these just in your head or are you actually screaming out loud?
reisen55
screaming out loud. Head screaming does not count.
deleted_user
I see. I just wondered because it wasn't too clear in the original post. I get that too... I think it happens when you're just so angry you can't contain it anymore and the tinyiest thing will set it off. Thing is, I end up throwing things about as well...
reisen55
True, just bashed a small model ship to pieces and threw a small corgi bus across the room. More will follow of course over time. Just received a credit collection agency call and that set off a round of intense anger. Going downhill very quickly, checking out the suicide sites now.
deleted_user
Don't go hurting yourself. Remember that this is just a heat of the moment thing. It will pass.
deleted_user
What did you do in the past that helped?
deleted_user
Is that to me or reisen55?
reisen55
I worked my way through a phone interview in decent shape, and the anger is gone but only for the moment. It is there, like a caged monster waiting now to re-appear and make my life worse than it already is.
reisen55
Spoke too early - credit collection agency just called after the interview was down. DOWNHILL I GO NOW..........
deleted_user
Yikes! How about doing some ranting & raving in writing? Do you think it might help just to put it on paper (computer?)
reisen55
I did not put my anger to paper, instead wrote a prayer to my family members on the other side to lend whatever hand they can at this crucial time in my life. Crying as I wrote it too.
deleted_user
(((reisen55))) sorry you are hurting.
reisen55
Well, the interview for all the immediate stress I just went thorugh came off well enough to get me a second interview next week.
reisen55
As to the hurting, I have realistically been hurting on and off since 1985.
deleted_user
Do you have caller ID? Just because the phone rings, does not mean you have to jump up and answer it. If those people upset you, just hang up... you don't have to talk to them. They can mail stuff.
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