I read in another of your posts that you stopped your meds. Perhaps you need to try them again.. I know that without mine, I too feel suicidal. Please keep your appointment with your therapist tomorrow. And tonight, do something you enjoy. Don't give in to that little voice telling you to hurt yourself. You just have to get through the next minute. And then....the minute after that. Hugs.

Yeah I came off 2 of 3 'medicines I was on about a month or so ago . I was supposed to go to the dr today but it got canceled for snow . Now I have to survive another week . I don't know if I can . All I want to do is act on the thoughts :(

i did not know this - I replied in the other thread.

People going off their meds creates the most amazing urges and compulsions. People shoot up movie theatres. People kill themselves and others. People stab their best friends to death thinking they're zombies. This is a very serious issue, going off psychoactive medications.

If you know your mind isn't working, then you have to resist your mind. You know this is temporary. you know this is a chemical imbalance.

So you know you're being fed a line. You have to remember that.

How do you think that guy felt when he came back on his meds and realised he'd killed his best friend? Or the one that shot up the batman movie? Or any number of ones - the one that shot up the primary school and killed his own mother?

You CAN'T stop cold turkey. All of the systems you have in your brain for processing emotions no longer work. And it's sudden. you misfire. You can easily become psychotic.

Go to bed, lie there, get through the time without doing anything you'll regret next week when you're mentally all there again. Okay? In the morning you either phone and get them to send a prescription to your chemist to get filled, or you get out there and go and get a refill. Even if you don't see your doctor you still have to get that refill.

You don't know what you will do that you will regret if you don't get that refill as a matter of urgency. These aren't vitamins you've been taking: these things affect the way your brain works.

Get a refill asap. This is not a drill...

I didn't quit cold turkey my dr titrated me down from them one at a time :( so u would think I would be fine . but instead I'm going off the deep end . And I feel that it is a miricle that I am still alive :(

It took me a year to get off Wellbutrin. :) sorry if I went over the top but truly: don't trust your brain. Just hang on tight till you get to the doc.

xx

This is just shiit . I just hope I can make it :( I keep trying to flaunt with death and idk if the next time will kill me :(

Don't hope: plan. To be fair, learning not to do those destructive things we have urges to do is a part of life. You may as well learn it now as any time.

You'll be fine. Knowing it's a trick of the brain is half the battle. Learning to say 'piss off brain' is the other half. :)

I hope you are ok

It's probably so dark where your head is at right now and I'm sure you feel so alone, but just picture something.

PLEASE READ THIS TO THE END SWEETHEART :)

There's just a single penny. It's on the sidewalk. Everyone is buzzing around, men in suits talking about charts and ratings through their ear pieces, women in their coats carrying their coffees and rushing to catch that lonely cab to their extremely stressful jobs. But you, you're that penny. You sit there, alone, watching everyone else go by.

Nobody seems to notice you do they? A kid, shuffling in his pocket for what change he can scrape together to get a hot chocolate for his little sister, walks by. He drops a few dimes and nickels and scurries to pick them up. As he sits there and counts out his change guess how much he still needs to get the hot chocolate: one penny.

And to his luck, there you are. Right in front of him, a miracle for his freezing baby sister. He is so happy to have found you. You are what he needed to help warm up his cold sibling after their long day out in the cold street. You're a blessing, and he's going to march to his sister with the story of how he was ALMOST short a penny to buy her that drink. He's going to tell her how excited he was to stumble across that one penny.

You are that penny. Remember? You're that beautifully unique individual who may have been unrecognized by some but so so very appreciated by others. You're special to people. It's very hard to see that sometimes, but if everyone appreciated you the way you'd like to be appreciated it would make these moments feel less special. You mean the world to someone out there, and you are the lucky penny in a world full of busy people and cafes with hot chocolate.

Just keep your head up and please just understand exactly how unique and special you are. Be proud of it and look forward to tomorrow. That therapy session isn't going to take care of itself. :) it needs you to complete it! I'm proud of you as a person, I don't think you hear it enough. Best wishes! :) things will look up for you.

If this is true and you are a danger to yourself, you need to immediately call 911 or check into an emergency room and state that you are having thoughts to harm yourself and that you have made attempts. I am a mental health employee and I don't know where you are located, but if I did, I would have to report this by law. Please get some help my dear. Here are a list of resources listed by the website.

USA: Hopeline (Suicide): 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
USA: Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-8255)
USA: Teen Covenant House Nineline: 1-800-999-9999
USA: SOS Teen Hotline: 1-800-355-0660
USA: Directory of local helplines / centers
UK: Samaritans (Nat'l and local): 116 123 or jo@samaritans.org
CAN: Directory of helplines / centers
Global directory of suicide hotlines
IF you are at the point where you are now a danger to yourself, the people on this webiste in the support groups are not professionally trained to deal with a patient that is danger to themselves and you need to seek professional help.

Call your therapist right now. You will get a voice mail. It will state if you are having a psychiatric emergency to hang upand dial 911. Call 911, say that you having thoughts of suicide and you have attempted to harm yourself and the thoughts are progressing. Give them the name of your Therapist and they will contact him or her. This will get you the help you need. There is no shame in 5150 if you are experiencing a crisis. The main goal is to get you better and stabilized. It is very brave, but if what you are saying is true. You are not doing well my dear.

Hi magically I made it through the night. I'm seeing my therapist in a couple of hours and Hopfully I can tell him how bad things are . I'm just scared because my mom is coming to and she thinks I do this all for attention and will just flip out :(