I am you. But... I’m stuck right now unable to leave in a kind of limbo hell. I feel like I too will be lonely forever. My partner is emotionally abusive and I suffer from PTSD too. She’s never quite supportive or even “present” other than what might be deemed superficially. I’ve suffered this for 20 years not understanding and always confused as things just didn’t feel right. It’s taken an enormous toll on my soul, my psyche, my self esteem and self worth. I’m quite intelligent and competent but I’ve been invalidated and convinced that I’m worthless. Never a bit of praise for my contributions and taken for granted as a rule. So listen.... you’re not alone. Your situation sounds just like mine. I too was so innocent, naive, caring and pliable. They raped me psychologically. Try to live yourself friendless. Be your own best friend and that’s where the healing starts. My prayers are with you.

I want to say something helpful but i am bad with words. There are people out there who care for you, and I care for you even if you don't know me.

Okay Michael thanks sorry what all you ve been through . Thank you for sharing your personal experience with me and I will try to be my own best friend. Thanks . I don't know if I have ptsd but if it sounds like I to have ptsd.maybe I do.
I wish I knew what's wrong with me.

And thanks radarblip

❤️

I understand that feeling, many times I have thought of running away...
life can be so isolating. but letting you know I am around if you ever feel alone! sending love and support.
feel better soon, there will be better days

Thank you lucillegem
I really appreciate it .
I'm so broken and there's just no going bck I feel broken im too empty to care about anyone .except one dear someone to me but she's starting to break me .

Hi Friendless..I'm 30 years old single guy..i grew up suffering from loneliness and for so many reasons..I never fully understood the reason why..I have been through a lot in my life...I lost so many opportunities due to anxiety..I've loved so many girls but never in reality...i never had that courage to express my feelings to them...i never had a opportunity to fall in love with someone...i was battling inside it hurts me a lot..I'm still single....i just want to let you know that you are not alone..I'm also feeling like the way you feel..stay strong never let down yourself because of others...if u don't mind i can be your friend.

Hi Friendless,
I’m very sorry you are feeling like this. Please don’t feel alone because we are here and we care for you. Please keep sharing. Sometimes life gets hard and overwhelming but I hope you will not lose hope. I hope you will remain hopeful knowing that this loneliness will pass. I’ve been so lonely too when my Mom passed away. There was emptiness in my heart, I felt alone, sad and never realized that I could be that sad. I was surrounded with loving friends and family but still I felt isolated and thinking no one was there for me. Loneliness hurts so much and I grieved for many months. Through prayers and support from my family, I was able to get through it. I pray that you will also overcome the sadness you are going through right now.

Please don’t give up. We are here for you. You are in my prayers. God bless.

Thank you for sharing. Sometimes we need to be broken down to be build up better. This can happen many times. The being built up better isn't becoming that which caused us to break down in the first place. The key is not becoming that which we hate. Being more of you is a good thing. Walls can keep out the bad, but they also keep out everything. My walls were huge, and now trying to replace them with fences, so I know who I let in. Trust should be earned, but respect is given. I hope this made sense. Thank you and God Bless.

Friendless -- You're absolutely NOT ALONE! Who you are right now, I have been! Been there so many times. But ... what I have learned about this disease of DEPRESSION is that what you're feeling/saying is not really you but rather it's the disease talking! I can't count the number of times I've contemplated harming myself. Really. I've struggled with bouts of depression beginning with some of my first memories as a child and I'm now 61! That's a lot of bad thoughts. So, when I get these feelings, and they are genuine feelings, I can recognize them as the disease speaking out. It's the disease. Believe you me, if you're not on meds, they really, really, really help. Please know and believe that these intense feelings will subside. And, with meds, you'll be able to carry on your life with much easier. Been there. Lived it. And I'm here in the latter part of my life telling you this is something that can be dealt with providing you seek the support you need. By that I mean, medical/pharmaceutical support, psychotherapy support, family/friend support and groups like this. Sending you a hug and I know you can do this!

RWJ - Well said about walls vs fences.

2020Foresight the thing is no one can help me or support me.
I'm hurt I don't want anyone to support me anymore .thank you for believing in me .

It's an honor to believe in you! And am so very glad you have shared your feelings with the group and me. I hear - loud 'n clear - the pain you're in. I know it well. It's very real. It's very deep. And it consumes your entire being. Now, remembering all that overwhelming pain I went through seems like putting on a comfortable and cozy old sweater. That's how familiar I got with being depressed. It's an ol' friend. Frienemy, actually. But, when you're hurt by others so often, and the pain piles up, pains becomes the norm. Before you know it, you forget what happy is. Just sharing my story with you. If you don't mind me asking, are you here in the States?

Yes I am. And thank you for sharing your story with me.