It makes me feel sad watching your condition get worse as you slip away more and more. I hate seeing and hearing the fear that you feel every day. I wish you knew how to have a relationship with God and feel his comfort rather than how you were taught about religion. I try to care for you the best that I can. I know I tell you daily that I love you, but I wonder if you really believe that since I'm not one to express myself enough to those I love, except my daughter. I wish that my panic disorder didn't stop me from taking you out places as others do for you. I don't know how much more time I'll have with you, but I hope that I am as patient as I can be with you and love you the best I can until your time comes and we meet again in heaven.

I am leaving tomorrow to head to my ' baby's' college graduation. I'm so proud of him. I don't know where the last 4 years have gone, it seems like he just left to go to college!

Hopefully I won't have a panic attack in that crowded arena . :(

Hugs to you Still and to everyone else.

LMT

Good luck Lmt. I'll be thinking of you.

Thanks so much Moll, I really appreciate it. big hugs :)

I need to stop THINKING about it.. damn panic disorder.

I'll be fine.. I'll be with my family..I will keep telling myself that.

I just want someone to listen and care

Can you do my assignment for me? It's
Really doing my heading and My minds got
Blank! :) hope you are feeling better today stillinthenight

Wishing i've had more than 4 hours sleep in 4 days...

Another all niter by the looks of it

I feel for ya StillnTheNight. I've had many all nighters and will have plenty more. Insomnia is a bitch. I've always said if I could fix one of my issues it would be my sleeping schedule because it's never consistent and it never has been and it effects my entire mood.

I didn't push myself to go get my mom a Mother's Day card, but rather wrote Happy Mother's Day on the envelope of her gift certificate that I also didn't pick up myself...this time. I'm big on cards for loved ones because it's one of the rare times that I express my feelings towards them and they love them. However, I'm gonna try my best to not beat myself up about this. Things are gonna get better, anxiety wise. They have to.

Just got home from work, survived another day,

Had an appt with a nurse today and it went well. She is going to
talk to the doctor about giving me Klonopin which would really help.

The cat in the hat had a bat that hit the rat that went splat on the mat

"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
Great thread great minds....

I wish you the best with that heretic.

Funny StillnTheNight.

I'm addressing people's posts, which may or may not be wrong, as everything with me must be right because I'm a perfectionist...which rarely ends well. I'm going back and forth between fb and here. I've had a few drinks since my depression is under control, for now anyway, and it's nice but at this hour most people are sleeping. So I'm just enjoying listening to music and doing this until I'm finally tired.

If your like me, it will be morning by the time you are tired lol

Jack was nimble jack was quick but Jill preferred the candle stick!