Feeling very sad today.  I have not been on here much lately. Life is just so hard and sad and it's so hard to find something good and stable to grab onto.  I guess I'll just try to slog through the day. There really doesn't seem to be much point.  I'm tired of having such an unhappy life.  I'm tired of trying and tired of whining and I really just want to stay inside.  I sometimes feel like every interaction I have with other humans is sort of uncomfortable or even degrading in some way.  Just nothing feels right.  Like I'm not somebody anyone truly wants to be around unless they are using me in some way.  I don't feel that way on this site.  I think people here are good at being supportive and forgiving and respecting each other's boudaries but in real life I haven't found that to be true.  I feel like in real life I have to be somebody I'm not.  The real me is just not socially acceptable or loveable.  Anyway, I was going to go out and get a couple things done but I'm not feeling like it anymore.  Just gonna stay in.  Have a good weekend.