There's something that has never been essential to my therapy because it mostly doesn't complicate my life.
So there was a lot of times where I experience myself as if I was several people and then those people have conversations. This mostly happens when I'm under stress (not that often nowadays) but since it has been ongoing I'm kind of interested if this is any known condition.
I mostly think of "the voices" as a way of thinking that I have developed to make decisions. However I think that more and more I could benefit from recognizing myself as more than one person and never try to shut up the voices. It's not like any of those voices ever told me to kill people or do anything else that is unreasonable. None of those voices is out of touch with reality more than normal people would be at times, when they're emotional.
I also used to have names for each voice but most of them are quite temporary and I've given up on naming them all.
I'm not sure how much out of the norm I am falling with this "way of thinking" that is actually in many ways more a way of being. I have heard of people experiencing similar things and by far not everyone who talks to themselves does it because of some psychological condition.
I guess in the end I am the only person who can really know whether or not those voices are essential to defining myself and if I should stop trying to shut any of it up. Maybe it is unhealthy to shut yourself up like that if it is for that reason.
I have a cold, so I am staying at home so I don't get everyone else sick. This isn't what I need right now. This New Years Eve will be my first without my dad (he passed in October). When the clock strikes midnight we will enter a new year. A year where my dad would have turned 80. A year that he will not physically be here.There has been a lot of great things that happened this year, but it is...
I picked up my brother's ashes the other day at the funeral home which is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do and after I was handed the box containing the 4 small urns, the young man had me sign a paper and then told me to have great day. I was stunned and speechless. How about saying something like "I'm so sorry for your loss"?