Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hey everyone,
This is my first time posting and tbh I never wanted to get help, but it's gotten to the point where I just can't function and be happy anymore. The reason I'm asking for help is because my gf of almost 2 years just broke up with me and it was absolutely all my fault. Looking back at it I treated her absolutely horrible in every way. I always use to consider myself a good person, but after all I did to her I don't think I can ever love myself again. I constantly made her feel like she wasn't enough and I constantly put my girl best friend in front of her and made her feel like she wasn't good enough. I told her things that made her self conscious about her body and I even lied to her constantly, but the worst thing I ever did to her was flirt with a random girl so I would feel popular and cool and that’s considered cheating. I broke her trust, I broke her heart and the feelings she once had for me are destroyed. Tbh I could keep on talking forever about all the things I wish I could have done differently, but that’s never going to fix what I did. The worst part is I loved her more then anything in this world and for some reason I still did those things to her. Why would I do those things if I truly loved her? I’m so angry, disappointed and disgusted with myself and because of this I feel the need to punish myself. She wants to stay somewhat friends and nothing else, but I want more then that and it’s killing me inside. We use to hangout ever single day and now I’m lucky if she texts me once a day. I’ve tried extremely hard to move on, but I just can’t I really can’t. I don’t know if this DS thing will help me, but I’m out of options. Recently I’ve had extreme depression, anxiety and I’ve started having suicidal thoughts. I don’t have anyone that I can talk to for help so I have to ask my ex and that just hurts her even more. Should I just stay friends with her or should I block her and hope she decides to come back to me? I’m so sad and depressed all the time because I had the dream girl, but because I was selfish and Inconsiderate I pushed her away and now she’s probably gone for good.
In the beginning, I felt more depressed while trying to do fun stuff by myself. I was in fact making me miss her even more. But soon I started to learn that emptiness within me. And then I realized that actual true relationship comes from 2 complete people coming together and celebrating that completeness. It's not because they need each other or like they can't live without each other. Hence I feel you have the same kind of feeling from withing and hence I would suggest you to forcefully go out and do fun things by yourself, cry your heart out if doing that make you miss you girlfriend even more but after that, you will see that you have emptiness withing yourself and trust me after you fill up that emptiness your personality and behavior will change and your energy itself will attract this girl back to you if it was truly meant to be.
Best of luck!
The guy I live with pushes me away all the time and I think I'm a sweet girl
I feel your pain especially at this very moment
If you'd like someone to talk to I'm available
My personal take is that broken-up couples shouldn't try to be friends. One person was the reject-er, and the person who was dumped (in this case you) harbors hopes and fantasies of rekindling the relationship. You will see every kind word and phone call as a sign she's willing to go back with you and it will break your heart. I would tell her goodbye for at least six months. That will give you some space to reconnect with your make buddies, get into some social activity. It's an election year - and if it wasn't, there's your town's planning committee, or an environmental group, Big Brothers, your company bowling team, or tutoring underprivileged youth, or *something* to take up your time and add some structure to your week. (Well, not is the next couple weeks, but you get the idea.)
When someone likes a flower they cut it, keep the beauty for themselves and watch it slowly die before they throw it away. When someone loves a flower, they give it light and water to watch it grow.
You lost her and please let her life her life in peace. ALL THAT YOU WROTE HERE SHE probably she need to hear it, so tell it to her but do not gwt mad when she downt forgive you.. And you get help, own what you did, be a better person, move on and hopefully one day you'll be able to forgive yourself. But all this regret you are feeling g is a good signal, you are not destined to be a douchebag the rest of your life.