I don't know what to say. It seems like everything in my life that I built that was good is falling apart rapidly. My former job that I had for seven years went up in flames, it was a disaster, then I was unemployed, and I had to look for a year and pull myself out of a huge financial hole.

Now, the current job I have, well, it's not working. I have been working and dealing with it for the past year and a half, and well, I had horrible feedback from my boss and a really nasty letter written, I can't go into it here. Suffice it to say that my union rep looked at the letter and the stunned look on his face said it all. I said, "that was my reaction." He couldn't even reply; he was speechless. So was I.

On top of it, I don't think I have my friends anymore. After my breakup w/my boyfriend, I thought I would have my friends, but I think I am alone now. I hung out with this couple a lot, but i think she thinks I have a thing for him, which I don't. She lately acts really funny when I am around. They invited me to dinner several weeks ago. When I went to pick them up, she was glaring and looking angry and awful and she didn't say anything in the car as we were heading down. They have always stood in place of my family, which was severely dysfunctional. Now I feel like I have hit rock bottom. Even when I see her at get togethers if I am smiling or talking she just looks down at the ground. Plus they are not getting along and they bicker. It used to be a safe haven to get together, it held me together, it kept me going, a real bright spot in my life. I feel like the light has gone out. My family treats me in a worse way. I've thought of moving state, of starting over.