Yes it makes sense. Just because you have some good things in your life doesn’t mean you can’t be depressed. Everyone processes things differently. There are days even good things overwhelm me and make me miserable because I can’t process them the way I need. So many times I was told to be good to myself and I would think that was so selfish. But it really isn’t. You have to feel good about yourself before you can feel good and help others. If you don’t have one already, get a therapist, some third party, to talk with. So many times I would be surprised when mine would tell me what I was feeling was normal. Your feelings are yours and even if you want to change how react to things, never let anyone tell you to just cheer up it get over it, or even worse “what do you have to complain about”. People like that are toxic and if you can’t get them out of your life, ignore them as much as you can. Do baby steps, think of one doable thing that would make you happy and work it into your day. Long bubble bath, making a batch of choc chip cookies for that smell, reading a good book? Something possible and then do it for you. It doesn’t have to be big but it’s just for you. I love to read but always felt there were other things I needed to do. But it made me feel good. So I would sit quietly and read a couple of chapters in a book I liked. It was just for me and made me feel good. Take baby steps , depression doesn’t stop in a day or week. Don’t push because you think you should. Tell yourself what you feel is valid, and then ask yourself what can I do to change that feeling. Baby step......

Thanks. I have a therapist. I try to take me time but there’s sooo much responsibility as Mom/wife/employee. I think I genuinely felt disappointed in myself for sleeping in until my littlest woke up at 7:20. I had so much to do and no time to do it before leaving. The house was a mess when my parents got here to watch her. Can something like that really throw me off the deep end? I was depressed yesterday but if I weren’t a Mom, I might have jumped off a bridge today....

could it be the meds? I think some meds even antidepressants can actually make depression worse. Also, from reading your post, sounds like you have A LOT on your plate. That could stress anyone out and stress is one of the biggest contributors to depression. even something considered "good' can bring on stress. It also sounds like maybe you are expecting too much of yourself? You're only human. You can't help it if you feel bad. And maybe there is some underlying reason that is causing this extreme down mood, something that isn't totally obvious, something underlying in your psyche or whatever. the times that I've been extremely depressed in my life have usually been due to some underlying cause that I wasn't always aware of at the time. having said all that, what matters first is that you take care of yourself, whatever that mean. if you have to take some time off work, away from church, the kids, whatever. sounds like you need to destress, rest.

yes it is all lies. you arent ungrateful. God loves you, keep the faith, and focus on the little blessings, keep a gratitude journal is helpful also journaling what your going thru helps get it out. also ive been realizing sometimes your feelings lie to you. nothing is wrong with you. you are an amazing individual who was made for great things and also you may look back on this in the future and think differently about the situation. you can get thru it. phillipians 4:13 and jeremiah 29:11 romans 8:28

Absolutely! Often when we come through the difficult times we are so elated that tears are a sign we have past the test! Before putting your feet on the floor each morning speak out loud all you are thankful for and know your day has already been planned, just let it happen. I often have manipulated my day with agendas, errands, conquering goals, guess what - I was exhausted and felt unproductive. When I allow our Creator to map out my day and I just follow, I am blessed, blessed, blessed. We are here for you.