I wish I had some advice for you, but the truth is, in just a few words, you've spoken to so much of what I've been feeling, too.

I feel like so much of myself has been over taken by shadows, and I'm constantly chasing a light I just can't seem to reach.

You're not alone in this. And I hope you can heal and that things get better for you soon. If you need help, or just need to talk to someone, I'm here for you. Please never stop reaching out.

Keep trying. Some things take time. At least you are taking steps to change your situation. Be encouraged.

Please know you are not alone. What you described is the exact reason I joined DS. Nowhere to go and no one to turn to. Living under an incredibly dark veil which seemed to dampen out any and all light. It's a debilitating place to be. I soooo get it. Depression often sucks us dry of any interest in everyday things, hobbies, etc. Is there anything you like? Anything that makes you feel a bit better? Sometimes the simplest things are the best. And no, of course taking a bubble bath or watching a good movie isn't going to cure depression, but getting out of your own head, even for a little while, can sometimes make all the difference in the world. Power on, be kind to yourself, and don't ever give up. Please.

many of us go thru the same thing and have different we make it thru it. some dont make it thru it at all. i found this site to help alot and also IOP group classes as well for my recovery and mental state since most is co-occuring so they deal in the matter of my mental state is why i used in the past and why most people use. learned alot and learned of all the people suffering like me. we may not be in the same boat but we all are in the same sea and its a rough one. i tried many things but nothing really works unless you want it to work. my fear is new things and change. but with my friends on here and my friends in class ive pulled thru alot in the past month. just dont live with the fear or what ever may hold you back from seeking more support . just know ill be here for you and help you thru what ever your going thru you just have to reach out to me and ill do my best to help

Depression is a butt kicker. Just remember that Depression is a cycler. It comes and goes in intensity and is trigger by many different things. I don't know if you are on medication or have seen a Dr. but, sometimes, we need help in dealing with this dreadful disease. Isolating ones self is often an indicator or depression. We with draw from friends and society. We only feel like we want to be alone but, on the other side of the coin., we feel alone regardless of who is around us. I have found that keeping my mind occupied and staying busy at something helped me. Doing things that we feel like we don't want to do or feel like doing, causes us to discipline ourselves to do them anyway. Staying alone, staying in bed, isolating ourselves just seemed to intensify my depression. Depression is not easy to deal with but, one can learn to live with it and do what we can to fight against it, just like we do other diseases. I believe ones state of mind, is a contributing factor to how intense depression can be at times. That's why I do what I can to stay busy and yes, even do things that I don't necessarily "feel like" doing. I am here if you need to vent or whatever. I've been here over 8 yrs.

I agree with so much of what other people have said here. For me, I had to learn to be patient with myself. Change takes time. It is also hard to make good, lasting changes when I am in a negative environment. I have to find a new environment. I have learned to do the things that I don't want to do in order to get where I want to go. Sometimes I haven't felt like hanging out with people, but I did it anyway because I wanted good, lasting friendships. I haven't always felt like getting out of bed or doing anything, but I do it anyway because I want a clean house, I want my kids to be taken care of. The more I face the things that I don't want to face, the easier it has gotten for me. Another thing that has helped me, and I hope can help you, is not holding in my feelings and frustrations and struggles. Just having someone who is willing to listen and help me carry my burdens helps me to let go of them. I can quit focusing on them for a while. I have also grown closer to God in my Bible study groups. He is strong when I am weak. I get a new perspective when I read the Bible and see what God has to say about who I am and what I can do through Him and how to live my life. I have let go of so many of the lies I used to repeat to myself, and I am happier for it. I hope this is encouraging and gives you hope for making the changes that you want to make. Keep going. Life is full of up and downs. You are worth it. I hope that you find a way to handle the toughest days so that you can find happiness and contentment. Hugs.

Thank you all for your advice, and saying you're there. It means the world to me.!

I feel u girl! I'm at the end of my rope.

Yep so tired of being tired is how I feel when it just overwhelm. I wish I could just take away your sadness and frustration for the day and throw it in the trash, then you can start fresh for the next day if and when it comes. Try to just tackle the small things first or just one thing at a time, Hope you can get a hold of OScar the grouch and tell him here is your trash and I don't want it right now and if you could try to keep things more clean it would surely be appreciated. Hugs and love to you.

Solitudeisnear,

Yes I'd to ask Oscar the grouch to take the trash out that I dont want it anymore. I wish it were that easy. Bullseye78 I'm so sorry girl. I'm always here if you need to talk.