You're still young. Things can improve.

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"Never give up."

I have so often felt hopeless and a failure. I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I do know that when I am extremely depressed it feels like it will never get better, but it does.

Listening to oldies usually puts me in a better mood, but there are some songs that cause me pain, so I avoid listening to them. If the oldies station is having such a negative effect on you, may I suggest you listen to something else? I realize this doesn't solve your other problems, but feeling even a little better can make a big difference.

Many people are out of work in today's world and are uncertain about what their next step should be. Have you thought about going back to school, whether college or to learn a specific skill? Have you tried meeting with an employment agency? Or reading a book about job interviews? The point I am trying to share is that if you can look at this as situation you need to problem-solve, and start taking steps to solve it, even baby steps, you will start to gain hope and feel better.

I hope you have a good day and find the answers you need. Pinterest is right, 39 is still young, especially in today's world.

I can barely afford gas in my car let alone a class. As it is, I'm what's considered over educated and under skilled. When I was able to in the past, there was always a catch. Become a notary public, only to learn it costs $1000 a year to be bonded and $500 for insurance. $1500 before your first signature. When I look at temp agencies, I don't qualify for much there. Aside from education, which I have long given up (I may have been qualified, but I'm not good at interviews. I'm too honest, according to my father.), the only other field I qualify for is home healthcare as my last job was in that area. However, the bad working conditions, the abuse from clients and the low pay, which is set by the state that wanted to lower it and part of it is taken for union dues (an union that doesn't do a damn thing but protest on the news with fake union members) make me avoid it at all costs. A person working at Walmart (yes, I've applied there and never got a response) will pass me by in 2 years. If people more qualified, skilled with better social skills that I do can't find a job, what chance do I have? I'm a man in the middle of the ocean on a sinking life boat.