You may just need some time to relax and recharge. Maybe then you'll start to feel a bit better.

I read your profile and it says you are trying therapy. That sounds like the best step to take right now.

Gentle hugs

MY HUBBY IS GONE 4 A MONTH ON THE ROAD.
I M A LITTLE DOWN TOO.
BUT STAYING OUT OF DEPRESSION.
GBU
DRENA B

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Medication has helped me substantially throughout the years. It may be something to consider if you're not taking anything. If you are, maybe you need to make a change in your treatment regimen. Major depression and anxiety disorder is an illness, and like any other disease requires serious therapeutic measures.

Working certianly makes me depressed, though some jobs were less depressing than others. The worst one I had was working with behavoirally challenged kids and thier parents. I swear I just wanted to beat those kids asses. The one I got now not a whole lot better, but at least we hold parents responsible for dumb shit like doing drugs and neglecting to take care of thier kids. I just wish I was financially independent and didn't need to work, then maybe working would not seem like such a hassle.

We will make sure to wish you a very happy birthday on the 9th, because you are a blessing to us. Much Love and Hugs

You have to go down before you can come up.

You're on a journey. A journey of learning. What is it that you need to learn? What is it that you need to discover? What key will unlock the issue of working?

Look for the key. Treat your life as a quest and the depression as a riddle you must solve. You will solve it: We do solve them. That's how we get to live happy ever after.

Maybe some kind of medication would help? It did wonders for me.
As far as work goes, perhaps some time off to recharge would be good for you. Work can burn you out faster than anything else. Maybe volunteer for a good cause like an animal shelter for a few hours a week.

I am already on meds actually. But I am going to need something different for my depression.

Boy I know how that feels. When I read your words I think about all the days I have felt like this and how I still fight it. I have been on antidepressants which really help the physiological aspect of this. I also have finally opened up about those barriers that are harbored inside my soul. Talking about those things I shouldered for too many years. I suffered in silence and became self absorbed. I still have bouts. I think the main difference is because I have experienced a few normal days I know the difference now when for years and years depression was the normal. Now I can tell when I am slipping. Go to the doctor and get help. I was always feeling so alone....and then I realized I had to ask for help and I did in tears. I realize now that professionals hear this stuff everyday...and its ok to just ask for help. They know what to do. Take care....keep us posted.

I do already see a counselor and am on meds. I like seeing my counselor because she actually remembers what I tell her. I am seeing my counselor and psych tomorrow actually (March 1st).