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Pretending to cope.

TheLastStanding
TheLastStanding

I am feeling extremely anxious and alone, I am trying desperately to stay clean and not let myself descend back into the chaos of my old life...but I feel like I can't express myself properly, because the people in my life are waiting for me to fail, waiting to roll their eyes with the 'I knew it wouldn't last' attitude. 


I need comfort...and support, but if I say I'm struggling my family start acting like it's Armageddon...so I have to withdraw from them to stop them stressing like motherfuckers every time I seem quiet or something.


You could argue I am lucky to have people that care enough to worry, but honestly, my relationship with my dad and his partner has been rocky to say the least and they have only really accepted me this last year, making me all the more aware of the pressure on me. 


I just don't know what to do...I can't keep this up, it's not fair. 

Tired
Tired
What about narcotics anonymous. You can go to meetings. The people there will understand you and be supportive.
TheLastStanding
TheLastStanding
Yeah I have considered it, but I don't think I have the balls to go to something like that. Talking out loud about my feelings is not my strong point at the best of times. But I do think it's something I could benefit from though.
Heidiclark
Heidiclark
If you accept support from people at Narcotics Anonymous meetings then you won't feel the need to talk to your family about what you are dealing with. Also you may not be used to opening up to people but it's better than going back to the drugs.
bridgie101
bridgie101
I'm just wondering who you can go to who can give you a hug. You just need a hug. A way to ... release the stress.

Be brave and hang on in there. You'll earn so much incredible self respect when you get out the other side, you'll think the sun shines out of your own. xxxx

:D Which it will. You're doing great. You think this is pretending to cope: this is actually winning.

Every day you survive without a crisis is a day closer to winning. The days aren't repeating themselves: you're travelling as the days pass, and you will reach your destination if you just keep hanging on in there. :D
fuzzybritches
fuzzybritches
Try to stay focused on staying clean for YOU. I've been there. But every time I slipped up, I hated myself twice as much when I started coming down. Sometimes I wonder what the point is: anytime I call my family and say, "I've got something to tell you-," they always jump immediately to, "Oh no, you didn't slip up again, did you?"
I'm like, "thanks for the faith, people!'
But slowly, it has become something I want for myself. I'd rather barrel straight on through the rough spots, and know that the pain is being dealt with head on, and that Ill be out of it quicker than if I were to get high again, feel amazing, and then crash down even harder than before.
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