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POST PARDUM?????

Dracona
Dracona
OK. in some cases i hear this lasts for up to a year, i read it can be worse if you had a bad pregnancy, but when i admit that i am having problems alot of people say it should be over now. my baby is 6 months old. ive always had some problems, i have some hormonal imbalance that seems to regulate around my monthly time, but ive never had medical long enough to get it really looked at, and well i get blown off.
they just want to put me on drugs. i dont know what to do. its hard to enjoy my baby anymore, i cant see a doctor, im scared a bit. sometimes i dont know if i will ever be happy again, or if im just plain crazy, and using post pardum as an excuse. maybe there is no excuse for me.
i see these AWFUL scenarios of bad things in my head happening to my baby, even to my dog. makes me cry. i keep wanting to leave my boyfriend and quit my job. even if it means i have no where to go. i dont know how to get over this anymore. i try to take it day by day... but i forget the vows i make on the good days, cause when its bad, everything goes out the window. and im scared i will end up alone, because i have no true family, all i have is my daughter, my boyfriend, and a dog.
no one else cares really.
meandthebeast
meandthebeast
Oh yea, Dracona, I know exactly how you feel. I went through horrible post baby depression. All I could picture were horrific things in my mind. I cried all the time.. I didnt ever want to hurt my child but I never felt like I could get as close as I needed. I was sleep deprived and tormented.. I thought it would never end and that I was going crazy.. I worried about everything,,,
I finally went to the dr. and got on some anti depressents and also something like valium to help until the meds kicked in.. At first I felt like I couldnt hold my son or I would drop him and then after a while, things got a lot better.. Talk to your dr. Hormones can be off kilter still. Talk to a dr. You are not using it as an excuse..

You and your child deserve you to feel better.. And you will if you seek the help you need.
Community LeaderThePepperMan
ThePepperMan
If your feelings are difficult to control, keep haunting you, then please do consider the medications. But make sure you are also seeing a good therapist. They may not be able to prescribe medications, but they can be HUGE eyes and ears for the doctors who can.
deleted_user
deleted_user
hi hun, im so sorry that your going through this, ive been there and it sucks!!!! my post partum didnt start until my son was about six months old....i was very close to being hospitalized and suffered for so long....meds is what helped me, they saved my life!! i lost those months that my son was very young, so really urge you to talk to your doctor or mental health proffessional. talk to them until they help you, your suffering and they can help. do whatever you have to do to get the help you need so that you can enjoy your time with your family. joining a mommmy group can be helpful, i didnt think it would help me but it really did. you can talk to other moms going through this and it gets you out of the house....please pm me if you need to talk....you are in my thoughts today...
meandthebeast
meandthebeast
I agree with Jann.. I have suffered clinical, and severe, depression since I can even remember.. This depression was much different .
My son had to go into the hospital a few weeks after birth for a minor surgery. I stayed in the hospital with him for four days.. I could not quit crying or feeling helpless and that he was going to die even though everyone told me it was not critical.. At one point I heard a nurse telling someone that a young child had swallowed a battery and that the dr. was doing emergency surgery as the acid had ate the babies aspohagas..(sp)..
I immediately called everyone and told them to make sure all their batteries were picked up and made sure there were none at my house.. I felt like my son was going to die, no matter how much I did to protect him.. I cried over everything.. I couldnt pull myself together..
The meds are the only thing that finally got me straightened out.. Get the help you need hon and dont feel guilty.. Nasty hormones
deleted_user
deleted_user
I have never understood Post Partum Depression But from what I know of it anyone who dismisses it is not real bright . I agrre with Pepper seek a good therapist and don't worry about what others think unless they are actually helping you.
Dracona
Dracona
im just afraid. i dont want to be a gunea pig. i was on meds before for this when i had a miscarriage, because i became violent towards others and nearly ran someone off a road. just when i think they started to work, i was pregnant again. it seems i dont have these problems when im pregnant. but cant stay knocked up all the time, lol. and if i dont get over this, i cant have another baby. my biggest fear is the doctors, i can only go to a "clinic" on a sliding pay scale. i hope i can find a good doctor. as far as therapy goes, this is my therapy, this is my place. the rest is too expensive, and i close up and dont have the time or the money to get it out. i work in the public, so i have an off switch for my emotions, i put on a smile and everything is fine, till im not in front of them anymore. but im going to see a doctor soon, i think i need to. i might have to wait to get the meds though, they are expensive as well...
ugh.
Dracona
Dracona
and thanks guys. cause i really feel nuts. lol
deleted_user
deleted_user
it can last longer than 1 year. Go to the dr. He/she is better able to assess the situation. I would say rather be safe than sorry .
Dracona
Dracona
pretty horse donna! i had two, but after everything just got my old nag left.. i miss riding.
im going to try to see a clinic doctor when i can. maybe its wh y i hurt so much too physically, i cant even lay down for very long cause i hurt so bad if im not moving. im not on any other drugs, but i feel like i should be. my step mom made a comment when i expressed i was having trouble to her months ago, she said its been 3 months, and made it seem like it was my fault and i was just lazy and unorganized. no matter how hard i try, i cant remember things. stupid little things.
ugh.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Have you applied for Medicaid? I know the rules vary from state to state, but with an infant you should be eligible. If not through your state's "regular" medicaid, then through a special Medicaid from whatever department handles "maternal and child health" in your state.

Please look into this! You, your baby, and this time are too special to risk.

Treatment for postpartum depression is fairly well-established, so I don't think you need to worry too much about being treated as a guinea pig.

If you don't have a doctor of your own to talk this over with, talk to your baby's pediatrician. They are trained to watch for signs of postpartum depression, and can make a referral for you.

Best wishes for you and your little one.
sja
sja
I went to my doctor for post partum when my daughter was 3 months. He put me on Zoloft and told me it could last a year, more or less depending on the person.
deleted_user
deleted_user
there is hope, you won't feel like this forever, things will get better. Life with a little one is stressful anyway, and like you said, its probably an imbalance that you have. And like someone else said, treatment for PPD is pretty standard. You've already recognized that you have this and thats the first step to getting help. A good doc can help you decide what is best for you. Keep looking until you find someone to help you. Good luck and Gob bless.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Post Partum depression can last well longer than 6 months..chances are good that it could be a hormone imbalance, especially if you had them before you had your baby. Ask to be put on hormone therapy if you aren"t ready to try antidepressants..I have seen hormone therapy make even the worst case of PP depression a thing of the past..Best of luck to you! xx
Community LeaderWanderingVet
WanderingVet
maybe print your post on paper and show it to a medical professional??