Sweetheart,
I tried to kill myself twice.
I don't want to say how..............

I thought at the time that I really wanted to die and maybe I did.
But for whatever reason, I lived :-)

Honey, if you are feeling so dark and helpless that you want to end your life, then Sweetheart you need to call for help.

We can stay with you here of course, but please do NOT do anything to harm yourself.

Avoid whatever Triggers you. Turn on some up lifting tunes.
Watch a rerun of a funny show...................

But please don't hurt yourself..............

I consider myself Extremely lucky. I did not die.

But I Hope You NEVER take that chance with YOUR precious life

I can't say that I've ever come close, but the way I put it to my therapist was that if I had to push a button at night to ensure that I would live through the night, there have been times when I would not push that button.

When I need a reason to live, I go for what ever will work. Short term, long term, what ever.

I've never been suicidal in the sense of planning, no. But there have been many nights when I slept wishing/not caring if I woke up. I wasn't actively suicidal, I just couldn't take it anymore. And...there will probably be more days like that.

But Pepper is right...it's all about distraction for me too. Anything that works...a movie, TV show, book, song, walk, calling a friend, doing anything fun and simple and distracting. I suppose it's partly distraction, and partly reminding myself that there is good in the world, and I can still experience it.

Sorry, I dont' think this is very helpful...but it's my experiences with suicidal thoughts, passive or otherwise.

Wishing you peace.

I've been very close...I remember putting a loaded gun to my head last spring but thought about my son before putting my finger on the trigger. My son saved my life...

yes it seems we all have just that one thing that stops us from that ultimate action....mine is my daughter and my cats, they need my love and attention no matter how sorry I feel i am. xx

It crossed my mind, but I never actually planned anything.

When I think of suicide, I tend to distract myself with activities that allow me to be creative. I start a project where I CREATE something, be it a video, a story, a game, a village in South Africa, whatever I can and want to create. This is REVERSE ENTROPY, going against the very grain that makes me depressed.

I attempted suicide once and let me tell you, living through it about destroyed my life. It impacted my kids and family, not to mention me. I lost my job because of my disability.

Please don't hurt yourself. Distraction, as others have mentioned, is key in helping me prevent suicide attempts.

If you're feeling suicidal, please go to the emergency room and get admitted. There is help out there. Peace to you.

Let go of the handlebars of my motorcycle. Wasn't necessarily *trying* to die, just didn't want to live. This was a few years ago. Woke up in the ER to a nurse inserting a catheter. Nothing will shock you back to consciousness like that. Almost lost my arm, spent two days in ICU then another five on a regular floor. No one knew the real reason behind the "accident". Not for years. Most people I know still have no idea. If they did, they'd probably never talk to me again. Succeeding in suicide means definitely no one you know will talk to you again. Attempting means most of them won't. Either way, just not worth it.

Spend a lot of mornings trying to find a reason to get out of bed. Most times I do it just because. There's something that keeps us going. Hope this doesn't trigger.

I think about it sometimes in my very dark days, but I am afraid of purgatory and hell. I have PTSD and Cirrhosis. I am out of the work force and forced to be disabled. mal66, you already said the thought of your son stopped you- that he saved your life, continue with that because if you do commit suicide, he will be left with that for the rest of his life and so many things could become from it.. like he may get PTSD, the feeling of abandonment, unloved, the list can go on.. I have never had children and the last 22 yrs of my "new" life have been full of love from my husband, his family and my immediate family. PTSD is no picnic. I knew people in high school that killed themselves and even after that. when someone kills themself, I think WoW, what was so terrible in their life that they felt they had no other choice. And knowing them, I never had the 1st clue they were troubled. Don't do it. Too many bad things will be left behind after you do. It's selfish and cowardly. Get right with your God and pray. Life is a Bitch, it's hard, it's complicated and long!!! People say "life is too short" NO IT isn't! You have to find something that can distract your thoughts and get professional help, find a therapist or counselor you can talk to , it helps to get it out.. This is a very good place to be when you feel the need for support and keeping a journal can help too. Try something anything else.. Peace, Karen

I've never tried, never really came close. I've thought about it a lot, spent a long time wishing that something would kill me so that I wouldn't have to do it myself. The thing that always stops me when I start feeling really low is that I can't stand the thought of letting the world get the better of me. Why should I lay down and die for those people? Also, I'm Christian and I'm not 100% sure that I'd go to heaven. I guess I'd rather suffer than risk it.