Mom, I wouldn't worry about things that haven't happened yet. I realize the last job was a very bad experience that left you in bad shape. Hope for a better outcome this time around. While Master's Degrees are helpful in job hunting, there are still jobs available for your husband. It can be very hard for anybody over 55+ to find a job, regardless of education level. Be supportive to him and maybe help him look for something new and exciting. Try not to compare yourself to others. What might look like a great situation from a distance, could be a different story behind closed doors. Most people have the same worries that you do even though it might not be obvious. You can do this!

I'll tell you what I did but I don't know if you'll like it.

1. I took a mild antidepressant.
2. I gritted my teeth and just did it. If I was upset I hid in the loos. I had nobody I could talk to, nobody I could trust. I didn't know if I'd fly off the handle or burst into tears. I learned how to hide. I learned how to stick my fingernails into the palm of my hand to stop from crying.

And I eventually managed it. If you go in knowing you have to, that there's no choice, and that nobody must know, you kind of get through it.

so get out there, get that job, work your butt off, dad can look after the kids if they're young enough to need it.

There's a huge difference between things that are negotiable, and things that are not negotiable. I've learned this with my mother, who wants to argue the toss about quality of life, that's just a nice to have. Some people get it, some people don't. Some people get cancer and die. We have to look at the hand we're dealt and see how we can play the cards we've got. :)

Negative emotions use to drag me down....jealousy, resentment, anger, envy, etc. When I learned to let go of those negative emotions through prayer and meditation and when I began praticing forgiveness, not so much on others but on myself, then things began to change for me. Many good things began to happen for me. It was like the universe was taking care of all the problems, I couldn't take care of myself.

When you look at the whole picture of why we are here on this earth to begin with, it really changes your perception. Letting go of past judgments and sending nothing but Love out to your family friends and neighbors, seems to be the key to getting the things you need.

God Bless!