Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Alo 02/14/2018

Okay, so I used to be extremely outgoing and talkative until I started 7th grade. The first trimester was fine nothing new but the second that's when everything I had was lost. I just started losing control of everything I had under control. My straight As were now B minuses and my outgoing personality was gone like someone had gone and blew it out. During this time I have severe anxiety causing me to also have depression. I told my parents but no one did anything saying it was just hormones but I felt this was not that. And I was right. Which brings us here now. Right now I'm at my all-time low in my life. I feel like I'm screaming but no one can hear me. My grades are terrible, I'm lazy and unmotivated. I am starting to have suicidal thoughts and severe insomnia. I'm also terrified that since i'm acting like this I won't be able to support my mother when she has retired and I just want to sleep and forget everything. It's like I have two mindsets: 1, the mindset that is the one crying a pleading for me to get help, 2, the mindset making me want to do all this and hurt myself. I'm still a kid and I am terrified I will turn to drugs or alcohol for comfort since I feel this way. I already want to get sleep medication to give to myself for comfort so I don't have to worry. Please, I need to hear advice desperately.

-I hope you see this and thank u

euniceps 02/14/2018

Please talk to a trusted friend or health care professional (perhaps a counselor at your school). You need someone to guide you in coping with your emotions. 'DON'T GIVE UP'! And don't try to fight this on your own--Proverbs 3:5,6. You can get pass this by someone helping you develop coping skills and becoming more resilient. Don't get overwhelmed, taking baby steps in the right direction is very OK!

shadowlady 02/14/2018

You remind me of myself at that age. I agree find a trusted adult to work through your feelings. My grandmother was my saving grace. God bless. Hang in there. Perhaps keeping a journal would help too.

veggiequeen 02/14/2018

It sounds like you are feeling alot of pressure to be perfect and do everything just right (if not from others, most certainly from yourself) I also had trouble but I made it to the 8th grade. There were other things going on also, but on top of everything else, I think I was having a doubly rough time because of feeling so out of sorts (little fish in a big unfamiliar pond who was not "perfect" like I saw so many others. )

Also, the fact you are already worrying about providing for your Mom when you are older makes me wonder why you feel this will be for YOU to do rather than your Dad? I grew up in a dysfunctional family trying my best to be perfect and cause no waves for anyone. For a long time I felt responsible for everyone and everything...including holding our screwed up family together.

You are so very young and have your whole life ahead of you. If your parents won't listen to you, maybe you could reach out to a guidance counselor at school? Or if you have your parents make an appt for you with your family doctor for something...then when you are there explain your concerns to them. They will certainly listen and hopefully steer you in the right direction.

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hang in there.

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