According to, well, everybody who has lost a friend or family member to suicide, it is never better for any of the survivors.

Please stick with therapy and keep fighting.

Sigh, today I feel much like you do now. But I shall fight on.

is that i want to but every time i just remember that because of my fault my parents have to be worried about me i mean 't like to involve people with my problems because at the end they get hurt so i think is better if all i keep it for myself

hugs

oh honey, I'm so very sorry. I've been there and done that many a times. You know that old expression "It's Always Darkest Before The Dawn"? Well it is. I know like I said. I have been through so much in the past 2 years that I don't think that anything else should happen to me. This last time that I was really depressed and despondent. Things were as bad as they could get. This past April I was figuratively at the end of my rope. I had no money, so I couldn't pay my rent, get mins for my phone, pay for my car rental. I got a 7 day eviction notice. Oh and because of no $, I had no car and hence I couldn't go to work. And so I had lost that too. I was really upset about losing my job, but I realized that it wasn't the end of the world. And that I could use it as an apportunity to change jobs/carreers. Things were really tense and I was really anxious and having lots of panic attacks. All I wanted to do was sleep. But I was so stressed out that I could only sleep for 4 hrs at a time. And cry, how I cried. I kept thinking that I would never make it through. But I prayed to God. And I took things one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time, and one second at a time. Sometimes that's all you can do. Find some things that you like to do, and do them to take your mind off of everything if for just a little while. Read a book, do a crossword puzzle, do circle a word, color (one of my favorites). Ever since I was a kid I loved to, there's something about listening to the marker,crayon, colored pencil noise as I was coloring and watching the white disappear as it is being replaced by color. Listen to music, dance, go for a walk, journal. Do crafts which is another of my favorites. Please, please reach out to someone in your community. A pastor/minister. Call a crisis line, go to the emergency room. Please I implore you, get help. I know that it's not easy. I've done 4 stints in Mental Hospitals. It was a miracle that I didn't end up in one this past April. Everytime I went, I would promise myself that it would be the last. Last April I said to myself that I had been in a lot of bad places/situations and I made it out alive. Maybe not unscathed, but alive. I always think that I can't do it, but somehow I always manage to. So this last time I told myself that with the help of God to help me hang in there. That I Could/WOULD make it out of this too! And I did. I'm not going to say that it's going to be easy, because it's not. But you need to try. And we are all here for you. Take care and God bless you. (((hugs)))

Aww…hugs to you, Clarissa. Suicide is not the answer. And, no, it will not lessen your parents’ pain; in fact, it’ll cause them more pain if you were to give up on life. As a parent, I can tell you that being unable to help your child is the most painful thing -- so don’t shut them out, but continue to allow them to be of assistance to you. Please remember that your depression is not your fault. It is beyond your control, which is why you need professional help to deal with it. Don’t give up the fight, okay? I’m praying for you, Clarissa.

You think if you die things will get better. For you? Are you anticipating an afterlife? What happens if you die and there isn't one?

I don't recommend this as a course of action. I think stick it out and then when you die naturally, if there turns out to be nothing out there, you at least haven't thrown away the only thing you ever got given that was worth anything.

you say today you want to give up. i think that's fine. Go lie in bed and give up. Don't do anything, just lie there giving up.

Don't do anything till you feel positive. Don't do anything until you have something interesting to do in your mind. If that's a week, lie there for a week.

i agree with bridgie101...go to bed and rest. don't do anything today or tomorrow or the next! depression eventually passes. sending love and warm hugs your way.