I'm not sure why, but now more than ever after the pandemic is *sort of* winding down, I just feel more sensitive to the energy of other people and crowds.  I'm not sure why this is.  I've started trying different meetups.  I've never had a bad experience before the pandemic, but lately I am.  Some of them are just not what I remember.  And I'm trying some new ones. Some of them are great, and others make me so uncomfortable I just want to run.  It's been very isolating during the pandemic.

I thought I would try something new, so I went to an arts meetup in my area.  I was looking forward to it most of the week.  All excited, I drove down there.  I was really kind of thrown off when I got there.  I don't mind meeting people of all ages, but when people are way far off from my age, I feel out of place.  It's not a big deal if I click with the people...but I just didn't. I think the whole thing was just ill fated.  There was a baby that was screaming like crazy, and it was echoing throughout the entire museum.  The mom just didn't do anything...and it went on...and on....  But that was not what bothered me, really.  It was the organizer, opposite sex of me, not usually a big deal, but my skin started to crawl.  We hadn't been there half and hour, and the personal questions starting coming.   He immediately mentioned liking to be alone and really disliking people, which made me very uncomfortable.  I did not like the way he was looking at me and that he was standing really close.  I am an art enthusiast and that's why I went-to talk about the art.  I felt he was drilling me about the details of my life, work, etc. Out of nowhere, he leaned in close and asked me "Do you have kids?"  I said why, then excused myself and left. I could not wait to get out. Really disappointed, I went straight home.  I am just finally learning that vibes really do tell you something and I used to not listen to my vibes. Now I do.