I’m really struggling. I skipped work Tuesday. I had a panic attack on the way there. I went in today. Still absolutely terrified, but I did alright. I like my job and the people I work with. Well, as much as I can, with my emotions being so bad. Point is, the job isn’t the problem. For some reason I got really low tonight. So anxious. About work and school. Especially school. It’s almost finals week. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I have no motivation. I’ve missed this whole week. I’m so depressed. It’s so hard finding joy in nothing. Not only that, but feeling just the greatest emotional pain in the pit of my stomach. I wish I could describe this feeling, but I can’t. It’s just depression. I’m still hanging in there. I don’t feel s**cidal at all, which surprises me, given how bad I feel. I guess I’m just still hopeful that things will get better and it will be worth the wait. I think I’m going to call my GP tomorrow to refer me to a psychiatrist, which I really didn’t want to do but at this point, I don’t see any other option. The worst part is having no one to talk to. I know there are people here and strangers on the internet to reach out to, but I just wish I knew someone in person who could help me. I’m alright. Just so down.
It seems everyone starts with the "I'm new here" statement so now it's my turn. I was a member of a group similar to this A LONG time ago, for a MUCH different reason, and I remember anonymously talking it out helped me immensely. So, here I go again. I separated from my husband in 2008 (final divorce in 2011) so I've been on my own for over 10 years. Back then, I was (obviously)...
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