I am overwhelmed with all these responsibilities and tasks. College, work, and home; it's all out of balance and there's so much demand for me to do more...always more, never-ending. Do 20 assignments for school, deal with writeups at work that weren't my fault but I have to take the blame regardless, have to get a bigger house, have to deal with my partners new dog that misses him right now, have to do all this with a big smile on my face and a positive attitude while I don't have one right now. I must just be a wimp, complaining of things that everyone deals with on the day today. I'm just weak, can't do anything right or all the way, always behind in everything. Never good enough, just want it to end, but I know I can't because that would just cause more problems and I couldn't have that on my conscience or sole or whatever. I have no one to confide in right now, I'm alone for 6 more hours. I can't always talk to my partner because it can cause him to blame himself and then I have to calm him down, make him feel better then we have to move on. Nothing gets addressed, no relief, always building. I can't find any way to relax anymore, no way to keep myself calm, no way out. I suppress it until something breaks me again. I guess the positive side to this would be if I ever can get enough off my plate to relax then the rest of life will be a breeze.
its too much to handle. Just as I’m googling how to sleep when feeling a little anxiety I get a message from work that is bad real bad. I can’t do this anymore. I need to got out of this and I don’t know how. I have no help and it’s too much for me to take