Hey, I totally understand the feelings, but please don't feel badly, it is so helpful to just get it out and not hold it in. I have posted only a few times, but felt exactly the same before hitting the send button. Please know, I almost immediately felt a little better to just get it out. In addition, everyone here has been so supportive, and not judgmental at all. Plus someone might be able to offer a suggestion, or will say something that might strike a chord.

So tell us, what's going on?

I just feel like I can't do anything right and I'm useless what's the point in trying if I know I'm going to fail and I can easily put these feings and thoughts aside and pretend to forget about them, for a while but when I start thinking about them again it only gets worse and i am reminded of how much i hate myself then that's all I can think about

Well, first of all, I think the majority of people feel this way - many just don't admit it.

Secondly, you have to stop judging yourself based on what others are doing or saying to you and around you. The ability to do this will come with time and age and life experience. None of us can do everything. The beauty of life is that we are all different and have different skills, abilities, and gifts. If something doesn't come natural to you, then move on to something else until you find out what does.

Thirdly, don't be afraid to "fail". Every single person on this planet has attempted to do something and has failed at doing it - not once or twice but continuously. That is what life is. Use your "failures" as a learning tool to improve yourself. Life is a journey. There are peaks and valleys; ups and downs; failures and successes. The sooner you understand what that means, the better your life will be.

Keep your head up and keep moving forward. You will be just fine.

As a whole, we're all insignificant but we all want to be special to someone I think. Do your feelings stem from a bad childhood? Mine do. I was taught that I was nothing and that my feelings didn't matter. The constant criticism and abuse made me feel like I had no right to speak up for myself. It sure makes it hard later on in life when you're trying to navigate your way through different situations. It's not easy to overcome either. I still deal with it. No friends, no life outside my own home. Not close to family. I don't hate myself anymore but I do feel the other things you mentioned. I don't have any advice for you but I wanted you to know that you're not alone.

Yeah, I feel that way alot, and somedays will tell myself I dont care what others think of me, but then as soon as I hear people giggling nearby, and I don't know why, I get paranoid, or if I hear people suddenly start whispering when i get near, I get paranoid, and all of it stems from the exact same feelings you are having, but when I think about it seriously, like I'm insignificant, therefore these feelings should not be so important to me, I get relief.

Maybe you need a god's eye view. Look down on the world from the heavens. What do you see?

Yes, you're insignificant. you're an ant crawling the face of the earth.

So there's not a lot of pressure really. What do you like doing? Why not do that?

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. I'm guessing you're an introvert as we tend to be the ones who overthink. One of the first things I would offer up is to learn more about your personality, doing this for myself has helped me a lot. Some of things I might consider as stemming from depression are really about how I'm wired. A site I would recommend is https://www.16personalities.com/personality-types. Learn more about how you're wired and then use your strengths to help fight the insecurities. For example, when I find myself just sitting there overthinking, becoming anxious, I force myself to get up and go do something. I have to change my focus. It really helps.